I'm lost

Don't know what to do. :-(

Don't know where to go. :-(

Don't know how to overcome it. :-(

This is bad. I haven't felt this feeling since.. I don't even know if I've ever felt it before.

*sigh*

Lord, show me what to do..

The very people who should be my greatest source of comfort is causing this turmoil. That's the worst part of it all.

I. want. to. leave.

How much more can I take? To appease, or to leave? Need I torment myself further?

It's okay this post isn't meant to be understood. =)

On a side note, I got an A for Econs. 75%.. not bad considering I only managed to cover 5 out of 10 chapters for the exam. Hehe, remember the threat by my Econs teacher about how nobody can get lower than me? Well, I think nearly all my classmates, save for 2 or 3 people will have to be kicked out of school. =P

However, this is only the beginning of form 6. The real test is in STPM. It's still easy now because my strong foundation from SPM days is helpful. But as it gets tougher..

So to sum it up, I got 1 A, 1 B, 2 TH(Tidak Hadir) for this semester. Not too bad, I think I won't be last in class. Those 2 subjects managed to beat quite a number who failed nearly(all?) every subject, so my TH for Business and History won't drag me down that much.

Oh, which reminds me. It's official now that I'm the assistant camp commandant for CF camp next year, and.. trust me, it's NO EASY TASK. But I have this urge to serve God in any way lately, so this is one of the ways I suppose. Whoever said serving God would be easy?

With me feeling this way about my problems lately it feels good to know that people actually trust me enough to hand me such a huge responsibility. Helping out in a camp for about 250 campers is not easy..! Nonetheless, it's God's hand in this camp. :-) We're just His vessels after all. We pray that souls will be reaped during this camp. In my opinion, camps like these are used to draw people closer to God, strengthen bonds between each other, and above all, to bring more people to Christ. Even one precious soul, if sincerely accepts Christ, then the months of planning, stress involved, money spent etc etc is worth it. Just one precious soul.

Okay so I digressed a bit. Thy will be done, Lord.

That's all for today. Take care and God bless.