Been out so much I need to be home more

I really don't know why, I've just been going out. I really can't help it. It's like I'm constantly out, by myself, with friends, for badminton, for this, for that...

Some days I don't even see my parents till I reach home at night. *What a useless daughter*

But it's good also lah, they don't have to worry about me, they just worry about themselves, considering I find my own meals outside.

Lol, actually the one thing that seems to bring me close to home are guitar classes(nearby home), after that I usually go home. Hehe. I usually leave my guitar books in the car and go straight for class after I'm done going out.

I was SUPPOSED to train today. Lol, I was wondering how I'll survive on my busted knee but the dilemma was taken out of my hands. Why? At 10.55am, when I'm nicely driving into the badminton hall area, my coach calls me and tells me training is canceled. Training is at 11am. And badminton is about the only thing I'm ever early for. *Sigh*

Just remembered.. I'm supposed to go for a MELTA English Literature Workshop today at 2pm. I registered last week, then canceled it because I thought I have something up.. Now I realised I may be free... Debating if I should go.

I don't very much fancy the idea of going alone by LRT to KL and trying to find the place.

But I get this guilt feeling that I should care more about STPM and English Literature, I'm already months behind.

It'll be lame if I call up and register myself again after registering and deregistering myself before this.

And yet I should go for the sake of STPM.

But I don't want to go.

But I feel it's my responsibility to go.

Geez now I sound like Gollum from Lord of the Rings.

To go or not to go.. that is the question. My guilty conscience is nagging me to go! But but but... I don't want to go. =(

LOL this is pathetic.

I think I won't go. Reason(not EXCUSE ok, it's a valid REASON): I don't want to get lost in the middle of KL. Not safe nowadays. STPM may be important but I must protect my life first. Yes that's the best solution.

So why do I feel guilty?

It's no wonder they always say you can lie to everyone but yourself.

*Off to find myself something to do so that I don't feel guilty about it*

Oh maybe I should just go.

But but but..

I'll go next year lah. Going this year also useless, I'll know nuts about the stuff I'm supposed to read.

Crap I still feel guilty.