.. to lead a nice, comfy, sheltered life. Where death is nothing but a thing that happens to others, not to people I know and love. Where killer diseases and accidents and calamities and disorders and.. and and... everything bad is just something I hear on the news, I see on the TV, I read in the newspapers. Where my life is like living under this nice shady umbrella that protects me although things are crashing all around me.
Is that too much to ask for????
Apparently so.
I've been going out a lot, playing badminton, sitting in front of the laptop only late at night after I'm done going out the past few days. To forget about life's problems? I don't know. Possibly, my subconscious mind is attempting to distract me from everything.
However.. today in the cinema.. I could scarcely concentrate on the movie.. I suddenly kept thinking of everything from the past two weeks. It's as if my mind and heart have finally been steeled to accept the inevitable.
When people ask me how I am (it seems to be the standard question these days), I usually answer.. 'tired'. Emotionally, physically, mentally, perhaps even spiritually, I am tired. Exhausted, to be precise.
It's great to know that God is in control, especially during times like these. =)
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