How often have girls been told to guard their hearts?
Ok, I don't know. Haha. I hear it occasionally, that's all.
It's one principle I've never thought of, but subconsciously it's something I do zealously. The only person whom I've ever given up my heart to is God.
But how long can you guard you heart? What if.. your heart says... the time is right to open the lock?
I've always been the type of person to trust my heart. I think. Haha. Take Arts stream although all your friends are going into Science.. choose TESL over Law... leave IPDA for home... anyone with HALF a brain would say I made stupid decisions.
But I've always trusted my heart (or more likely my Dad up there is pushing me along) to do the right thing.. and in retrospect, I have no regrets.
But those decisions have never.. affected my HEART itself.
I'm following my heart this time... the biggest risk my heart is taking, considering I've never even risked it before... Beauty & the Beast! ;-)
<3 I will trust you...
Have a blessed day,
Jo
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
Week 14
FINAL week! =)
No more morning classes, only left with 2 hours of classes per day this week! Except for Thursday. But holiday mood di! :-)
NO MORE CLASSES TILL NEXT YEAR!
I decided to quit Chinese and piano classes. Chinese cause I felt.. hmm. Like I was getting nowhere. Ni hao ma? And piano.. about the same story lah. I think I'll stick to my one true love.. guitar! =) I thought of completing at least until grade 8 for piano then I can teach next time.. but.. although I had a very good teacher with freaking expensive fees, the love and enjoyment just isn't there.. as compared to the guitar. I do enjoy ting ting tong tong on the piano and I will continue to do so, but I think.. not exam-wise lah. I think. We'll see. Piano just no hope la.. -_- learn so many thousand years and still stuck at grade 6, classical guitar learn 2 years and caught up to piano di! Hmm.
So looks like I may never end up teaching piano. Oh well. We'll see. I may pick it up sometime in the future.. maybe...
Good news is, with those 2 out of the way, my JPA money will be a lot! more extra. Hehe. Before this I counted in chinese, guitar and piano, and realised I'll be exceptionally tight. But now.. =D
Ok, bedtime!
God bless,
Jo
No more morning classes, only left with 2 hours of classes per day this week! Except for Thursday. But holiday mood di! :-)
NO MORE CLASSES TILL NEXT YEAR!
I decided to quit Chinese and piano classes. Chinese cause I felt.. hmm. Like I was getting nowhere. Ni hao ma? And piano.. about the same story lah. I think I'll stick to my one true love.. guitar! =) I thought of completing at least until grade 8 for piano then I can teach next time.. but.. although I had a very good teacher with freaking expensive fees, the love and enjoyment just isn't there.. as compared to the guitar. I do enjoy ting ting tong tong on the piano and I will continue to do so, but I think.. not exam-wise lah. I think. We'll see. Piano just no hope la.. -_- learn so many thousand years and still stuck at grade 6, classical guitar learn 2 years and caught up to piano di! Hmm.
So looks like I may never end up teaching piano. Oh well. We'll see. I may pick it up sometime in the future.. maybe...
Good news is, with those 2 out of the way, my JPA money will be a lot! more extra. Hehe. Before this I counted in chinese, guitar and piano, and realised I'll be exceptionally tight. But now.. =D
Ok, bedtime!
God bless,
Jo
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Elloz bloggy! :-)
I'm procrastinating. That's why I'm blogging. Haha. 3 major assignments due next week! :-(
But.. FINAL WEEK before holidays! =D Matter of fact, most of my classes finished di, just some wrapping up to do in most lectures. Hehehe.
Research Methodology, done. No more presentations for this year! =)
Thai, done. My ajan happily doing her Haj.
TITAS, DONE. Smsed, dreamed and skipped my weeks away during this horrifyingly boring class.
Computer, done. This Monday will be my last Facebooking class during my entire career in UM! If I even attend it. ;-)
Writing skills, Asia Tenggara and Lit left.. assignments. :-)
Can you believe I made it through my first sem so successfully? As in, joyfully, with no tsunamis in life?
Haha I know I type as if there are no exams.. =P Long time more lah exams.
While I still dislike assignments, I'm learning to tolerate them. If you can't lick 'em, join 'em, right?
Of course there's the one aspect that made the 2nd half of this sem enjoyable and sweet.. ;-)
I drove to Shah Alam yesterday! =D Confession: I've never driven there before. HAHAHA. Only remember Shah Alam as this foreign land where I used to go to for the occasional badminton tournament. Hehe.
Anyway, final week, I'm in a celebratory mood!
God bless ya,
Jo
I'm procrastinating. That's why I'm blogging. Haha. 3 major assignments due next week! :-(
But.. FINAL WEEK before holidays! =D Matter of fact, most of my classes finished di, just some wrapping up to do in most lectures. Hehehe.
Research Methodology, done. No more presentations for this year! =)
Thai, done. My ajan happily doing her Haj.
TITAS, DONE. Smsed, dreamed and skipped my weeks away during this horrifyingly boring class.
Computer, done. This Monday will be my last Facebooking class during my entire career in UM! If I even attend it. ;-)
Writing skills, Asia Tenggara and Lit left.. assignments. :-)
Can you believe I made it through my first sem so successfully? As in, joyfully, with no tsunamis in life?
Haha I know I type as if there are no exams.. =P Long time more lah exams.
While I still dislike assignments, I'm learning to tolerate them. If you can't lick 'em, join 'em, right?
Of course there's the one aspect that made the 2nd half of this sem enjoyable and sweet.. ;-)
I drove to Shah Alam yesterday! =D Confession: I've never driven there before. HAHAHA. Only remember Shah Alam as this foreign land where I used to go to for the occasional badminton tournament. Hehe.
Anyway, final week, I'm in a celebratory mood!
God bless ya,
Jo
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Squashyyyyy
First competition ever! In squash lah. Don't even know the rules but want to play competition.. -_-
Oh man I've never done so miserably in a competition before. LOL. I lost ALL my games but 1.. Hahahahaha.
But because we(team event) won ONE game, we got 4th place. Hahaha!
Speaks truckloads for the squash standard in Malaysia.
Ran into the wall multiple times, hit my racquet against the wall soo many times, was taught to push people out of the way ROUGHLY by a Sukma squash player..
Gee, just gimme badminton any day lah. No walls to run into, no PUSHING people to get a point.. my body can't take all that abuse.. haha. The walls are hard.
I played like a plain lembu today lah. Haha! Footwork semua takde, only thing I had was my forehand drive.. because I once trained squash for a few months and I guess that's what every beginner is taught. And even that only if I had a wide angle to swing my racquet.
My stamina is GONE. GONE.
Must train it up again.. so unhealthy la :-(
Ish talk talk talk that's all I know.
Tomorrow I'll get to watch the debate competition in college. Can't wait to see those doctors and lawyers and whatsoever clever talkers debate! As long as I'm not in, I'll gladly watch.
I'm happy. ;-)
God bless ya,
Jo
Oh man I've never done so miserably in a competition before. LOL. I lost ALL my games but 1.. Hahahahaha.
But because we(team event) won ONE game, we got 4th place. Hahaha!
Speaks truckloads for the squash standard in Malaysia.
Ran into the wall multiple times, hit my racquet against the wall soo many times, was taught to push people out of the way ROUGHLY by a Sukma squash player..
Gee, just gimme badminton any day lah. No walls to run into, no PUSHING people to get a point.. my body can't take all that abuse.. haha. The walls are hard.
I played like a plain lembu today lah. Haha! Footwork semua takde, only thing I had was my forehand drive.. because I once trained squash for a few months and I guess that's what every beginner is taught. And even that only if I had a wide angle to swing my racquet.
My stamina is GONE. GONE.
Must train it up again.. so unhealthy la :-(
Ish talk talk talk that's all I know.
Tomorrow I'll get to watch the debate competition in college. Can't wait to see those doctors and lawyers and whatsoever clever talkers debate! As long as I'm not in, I'll gladly watch.
I'm happy. ;-)
God bless ya,
Jo
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Six killed as car crashes into trees
Six killed as car crashes into trees (Updated)
Each time I read news like this I'll caution myself to slow down, not to speed so much. I admit I've got a slight penchant for speeding, whether it's with my lil' Kenari or the big Perdana.
Guess I just feel too at home in the car and feel a need to speed when the roads are empty.
Just a reminder.. a sad reminder. Could easily have been my friends and I in that 2am accident!
2 weeks left. ;-)
God bless,
Jo
Each time I read news like this I'll caution myself to slow down, not to speed so much. I admit I've got a slight penchant for speeding, whether it's with my lil' Kenari or the big Perdana.
Guess I just feel too at home in the car and feel a need to speed when the roads are empty.
Just a reminder.. a sad reminder. Could easily have been my friends and I in that 2am accident!
2 weeks left. ;-)
God bless,
Jo
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
One of those days...
It's been one of those days again.. been sporadic and hits on and off, albeit getting less and less frequent.
My printer officially died (because the computer man came and said so), my modem is retarded (com man can't solve it too). What's a student gonna do without a printer, with major assignments starting to be due as its end of sem? Go to UM earlier everyday and print stuff out la.. what else?? Lol!
Hmm but I have to try and solve it lah, it's only a few months old.
I did manage to come home a few hours today. Wanted to attend Bible study (God and I know how much I need that) tonight but I've got a meeting at 9pm tonight.
On a happier note, I started using my dad's N97 and it's the best phone I've ever used! I feel happy with it. :-) Didn't use it earlier due to various reasons.
And I've been getting rather good feedback for my assignments, so guess some of my efforts paid off despite my grumbling and rumbling about assignments. :-)
Ok normally today would have been a ranting post but I told all of it to someone di.. so no urge to ramble on about life. Haha.
Had a good long talk with my heavenly Dad today :-) Love Him so much! Maybe He purposely gave me 'one of those days' because He knows that's when I run back to Him. Hmm. Trust me, I ran back to Him as fast as these short legs could carry me. ;-)
Have a blessed day!
Jo
My printer officially died (because the computer man came and said so), my modem is retarded (com man can't solve it too). What's a student gonna do without a printer, with major assignments starting to be due as its end of sem? Go to UM earlier everyday and print stuff out la.. what else?? Lol!
Hmm but I have to try and solve it lah, it's only a few months old.
I did manage to come home a few hours today. Wanted to attend Bible study (God and I know how much I need that) tonight but I've got a meeting at 9pm tonight.
On a happier note, I started using my dad's N97 and it's the best phone I've ever used! I feel happy with it. :-) Didn't use it earlier due to various reasons.
And I've been getting rather good feedback for my assignments, so guess some of my efforts paid off despite my grumbling and rumbling about assignments. :-)
Ok normally today would have been a ranting post but I told all of it to someone di.. so no urge to ramble on about life. Haha.
Had a good long talk with my heavenly Dad today :-) Love Him so much! Maybe He purposely gave me 'one of those days' because He knows that's when I run back to Him. Hmm. Trust me, I ran back to Him as fast as these short legs could carry me. ;-)
Have a blessed day!
Jo
Why?
Why by Nicole Nordeman
We rode into town the other day
Just me and my daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide
We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man that my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes
So I said daddy why are they screaming
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts him more then he shows
Daddy please can't you do something?
He looks as though he's gonna cry
You said he was stronger then all of those guys
Daddy please tell me why?
Why does everyone want him to die?
Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide
So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross
And it said Father why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my clothes?
This crown of thorns hurts me more then it shows
Father please can't you do something?
I know that you must hear my cry's
I thought I could handle a cross of this size
Father remind me why?
Why does everyone want me to die?
When will I understand why?
My precious son
I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own
Jesus this hurts me much more then you know
But this dark hour
I must do nothing
Though I've heard your unbearable cries
The power in your blood
Destroys all of the lies
Soon you'll see past their unmerciful lies
Look there below
See the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell you why
She is why you must die
I woke up this morning with this powerful song playing in my head. I don't know why, that hardly ever happens, I normally wake up to nothing. Despite my extremely exhausted body dreading a wretchedly full day today, this song kept playing and playing in my mind.. over and over again.
It's things like these that just make me want to fall to my knees and pray like I've never prayed before. I've been a lackadaisical child, done so many things I oughtn't have done.. and yet He still welcomes me into His arms.
Thank you Lord for your mercy.. change me to be more and more like You.
Just realised dad's birthday is coming.. first birthday eversince he's left us for a better place.
Horribly tiring day ahead.. will probably reach home 11pm+. With the few hours of sleep I had, don't know how I'll get along. Hmm.. next sem no more, no more! At least I made this mistake in my first sem.. still can relax and fool around a bit.
Anyway, I'm off, class at 9am.
Have a less tiring day than mine,
Jo
Saturday, October 09, 2010
Experiment..
About 2 years.. (or more) ago, I decided I was fed-up with earrings because they irritated me too much when I slept. And I was too lazy to take them off before I slept. So I thought I'll stop wearing earrings and see if the holes would close...
My hypothesis: It would close. Our body can heal itself, can't it?? What's a lil' hole? I only pierced them when I was 8.. after all.. hahaha
Others' hypothesis: Impossible. I was given so many examples of people whose earlobe holes never closed despite years of not wearing earrings, especially since I pierced them years ago.
Being the stubborn pig I was/am, I decided to forge ahead with my experiment. Removed my earrings, and never once disturbed those holes since then. Actually, I'd pretty much forgotten the fact that I had once pierced my ears.
Until today, that is. I decided it'd be time to prove my hypothesis. ;-) So... I attempted to stick an earring into the hole... tried.. and tried... changed ear hole.. Dang, my hypothesis was right...!
For a few seconds there I dreaded the idea of allowing a needle to go through me again. Being more cowardly now as compared to my 8 year old days, I probably would have just thrown the whole idea of needles away and lived without earrings for the rest of my life.
Then it went through! Hahaha. So I quickly attempted the other ear hole. Lo and behold! Both sides still had open holes!
Result: Experiment FAIL.
Thankfully, I'm glad it failed. Hahaha. The things I thought of 2 years ago!
3 weeks of sem left. I'm supposed to start on my assignments. I said that many hours ago. :(
Discipline, Jo, discipline! Procrastination is the key to success!
Erm. I mean, procrastination is the road to failure!
LOL.
Have a blessed day!
Jo
My hypothesis: It would close. Our body can heal itself, can't it?? What's a lil' hole? I only pierced them when I was 8.. after all.. hahaha
Others' hypothesis: Impossible. I was given so many examples of people whose earlobe holes never closed despite years of not wearing earrings, especially since I pierced them years ago.
Being the stubborn pig I was/am, I decided to forge ahead with my experiment. Removed my earrings, and never once disturbed those holes since then. Actually, I'd pretty much forgotten the fact that I had once pierced my ears.
Until today, that is. I decided it'd be time to prove my hypothesis. ;-) So... I attempted to stick an earring into the hole... tried.. and tried... changed ear hole.. Dang, my hypothesis was right...!
For a few seconds there I dreaded the idea of allowing a needle to go through me again. Being more cowardly now as compared to my 8 year old days, I probably would have just thrown the whole idea of needles away and lived without earrings for the rest of my life.
Then it went through! Hahaha. So I quickly attempted the other ear hole. Lo and behold! Both sides still had open holes!
Result: Experiment FAIL.
Thankfully, I'm glad it failed. Hahaha. The things I thought of 2 years ago!
3 weeks of sem left. I'm supposed to start on my assignments. I said that many hours ago. :(
Discipline, Jo, discipline! Procrastination is the key to success!
Erm. I mean, procrastination is the road to failure!
LOL.
Have a blessed day!
Jo
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
Ramblings
Snoozed my alarm unconsciously, jumped up at 7.30am, got ready for uni in SEVEN mins, think I can beat guys! with this kinda timing. Cause I needed to reach UM by 8am to pass an assignment to my deaaar friend. At other times 10 mins is sufficient to reach UM, but at 7.40am... jam! Sheesh. Nevertheless I reached 8.05am. :-)
And THEN... Lecture was supposed to be at 9am.. -_- Guessed what happened?? It was CANCELLED. I could have slept till 1pm! Wow talk about frustrated. Haha. But hey, Yan needed her assignment.. =)
But still. I reached UM at 8am for the first time in my whole sem and I waited till 1pm for a lecture! haiz. Ok, I could have gone home but those poor souls without such a privilege of a nearby home convinced me to stay. haha. So I did. =)
We talked about blogs.. mmm.. they asked me if I had one.. I evaded the question.. haha. But they guessed (rightly) that I have a blog. If I'm not wrong, one of my coursemates may already know my blog address, because it's in my Yahoo! mail signature, and I forgot to delete it before I sent out an email. Hmm.
I don't want them to read my blog lah.. my school friends sure, they know I have a pretty interesting history. But my coursemates.. -_- Haha, ok, I know I can't pretend that my history doesn't exist, but my coursemates don't know it.. I can always make my blog private but it's pointless. Hmm.
Well, I guess sooner or later they'll discover bits and pieces of my life.. they're supposed to be my best friends for these 3 years anyway! Bunch of awesome people. :-)
4 weeks more of lecture... that was AWFULLY quick, wasn't it?? I've got a couple of major assignments due end of sem.. that's about it. :-) *Holiday mood di*
Everyday I look back at my life and marvel at the miracles I see in it. Seriously, I do. I'm pretty much contented with how things are working out now, our God's an awesome God! I mean, 1 year ago at this same time I was battling with so many worries and tsunamis, and this year I'm so relaxed and happy. Tell me last year that things would get better and I would have spat in your face. Really. Does the word 'coincidence' exist in God's vocab?
Of course, there are wounds that are still healing, and perchance may never heal completely. But each wound moulds me into who I am today, and simply teaches me to rely more and more on our Almighty God. I may need to do some reconciliation with certain people in time to come, but it'll be fine.. I hope.
You ask me whether I'll prefer a perfect life with no pain, versus all I've been through, and I'll honestly pick my current life, with all the battle scars and injuries. Each experience, painful or not, has simply moulded my perspectives and made me who I am today. 3 years ago I was this arrogant kid who thought the world cowtowed to her. Now? Haha. I've still got a long way to go, but I think the changes I've made along the way have been for the better.
As for physical changes? I've got a bit of a wisdom tooth! :-) And I'm losing weight like mad. I really don't know why. I'm eating as usual, skip the occasional lunch due to lectures but I'll always make up for it later on in the day. Had to shop for new pants few days ago because some of my long pants were just too ridiculously big! -_- And I'm not exercising.. unless you count walking in UM. But walking in UM is nothing compared to an intense 2 hour badminton session, or a lighter 1 hour walk through Bukit Gasing/Kiara. Where's the weight going?? My mom has a theory that I 'got her genes' cause she lost all her weight around my age too long ago. I don't know what kinda scientific fact that is, but hey, I'm happy. Can eat, no need exercise like mad dog, can lose weight, why complain???
For the sake of my own body I'm really gonna start exercising again soon though. Too unhealthy, this sedentary lifestyle.
Ok, enough rambling. Maybe I'm turning bimbo. Hmm..
God bless,
Jo
And THEN... Lecture was supposed to be at 9am.. -_- Guessed what happened?? It was CANCELLED. I could have slept till 1pm! Wow talk about frustrated. Haha. But hey, Yan needed her assignment.. =)
But still. I reached UM at 8am for the first time in my whole sem and I waited till 1pm for a lecture! haiz. Ok, I could have gone home but those poor souls without such a privilege of a nearby home convinced me to stay. haha. So I did. =)
We talked about blogs.. mmm.. they asked me if I had one.. I evaded the question.. haha. But they guessed (rightly) that I have a blog. If I'm not wrong, one of my coursemates may already know my blog address, because it's in my Yahoo! mail signature, and I forgot to delete it before I sent out an email. Hmm.
I don't want them to read my blog lah.. my school friends sure, they know I have a pretty interesting history. But my coursemates.. -_- Haha, ok, I know I can't pretend that my history doesn't exist, but my coursemates don't know it.. I can always make my blog private but it's pointless. Hmm.
Well, I guess sooner or later they'll discover bits and pieces of my life.. they're supposed to be my best friends for these 3 years anyway! Bunch of awesome people. :-)
4 weeks more of lecture... that was AWFULLY quick, wasn't it?? I've got a couple of major assignments due end of sem.. that's about it. :-) *Holiday mood di*
Everyday I look back at my life and marvel at the miracles I see in it. Seriously, I do. I'm pretty much contented with how things are working out now, our God's an awesome God! I mean, 1 year ago at this same time I was battling with so many worries and tsunamis, and this year I'm so relaxed and happy. Tell me last year that things would get better and I would have spat in your face. Really. Does the word 'coincidence' exist in God's vocab?
Of course, there are wounds that are still healing, and perchance may never heal completely. But each wound moulds me into who I am today, and simply teaches me to rely more and more on our Almighty God. I may need to do some reconciliation with certain people in time to come, but it'll be fine.. I hope.
You ask me whether I'll prefer a perfect life with no pain, versus all I've been through, and I'll honestly pick my current life, with all the battle scars and injuries. Each experience, painful or not, has simply moulded my perspectives and made me who I am today. 3 years ago I was this arrogant kid who thought the world cowtowed to her. Now? Haha. I've still got a long way to go, but I think the changes I've made along the way have been for the better.
As for physical changes? I've got a bit of a wisdom tooth! :-) And I'm losing weight like mad. I really don't know why. I'm eating as usual, skip the occasional lunch due to lectures but I'll always make up for it later on in the day. Had to shop for new pants few days ago because some of my long pants were just too ridiculously big! -_- And I'm not exercising.. unless you count walking in UM. But walking in UM is nothing compared to an intense 2 hour badminton session, or a lighter 1 hour walk through Bukit Gasing/Kiara. Where's the weight going?? My mom has a theory that I 'got her genes' cause she lost all her weight around my age too long ago. I don't know what kinda scientific fact that is, but hey, I'm happy. Can eat, no need exercise like mad dog, can lose weight, why complain???
For the sake of my own body I'm really gonna start exercising again soon though. Too unhealthy, this sedentary lifestyle.
Ok, enough rambling. Maybe I'm turning bimbo. Hmm..
God bless,
Jo
Friday, October 01, 2010
Something keeps disturbing me.. my mind.
Ever since last Tuesday's Bible study, what was shared struck something in my heart. Which is fairly normal.. but this time I can't shake it off.....
Too many times we plan our whole lives, have dreams and ambitions.. millionaire by 30, own this, own that, do this, do that.. and we live for these dreams...
Maybe unconsciously I know that I live for such ideals? That's why this thought is so disturbing and provoking. I keep saying I will go wherever God sends me.. but will I really??
God isn't concerned with ensuring we lead extremely blessed, prosperous lives.. He is concerned with making us more and more like Him. The Bible proves that, that's for sure.
The more I learn about our God, the more I want to know Him more... There's just so much to know..! I think I would have covered the Bible several times over if I'd spent more time studying His word instead of numerous revision books over the span of my lifetime.. especially form 6 books!
Contemplating.. hence this blog post. :-)
Change me to be more and more like You everyday, Lord.
God bless,
Jo
Too many times we plan our whole lives, have dreams and ambitions.. millionaire by 30, own this, own that, do this, do that.. and we live for these dreams...
Maybe unconsciously I know that I live for such ideals? That's why this thought is so disturbing and provoking. I keep saying I will go wherever God sends me.. but will I really??
God isn't concerned with ensuring we lead extremely blessed, prosperous lives.. He is concerned with making us more and more like Him. The Bible proves that, that's for sure.
The more I learn about our God, the more I want to know Him more... There's just so much to know..! I think I would have covered the Bible several times over if I'd spent more time studying His word instead of numerous revision books over the span of my lifetime.. especially form 6 books!
Contemplating.. hence this blog post. :-)
Change me to be more and more like You everyday, Lord.
God bless,
Jo
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