Sad..

Man, when you ask God to humble you.. it's really really tough man.

All the things seem to tumble at once.. catching me right in the middle of it.

Still, Your will be done, Lord. Change me to be like You.

I'm quite upset over some things now.. it ain't easy being moulded to become the perfect clay, the smooth pebble.

Little did I know how much impact this song would cause when I really meant it.

Make Me A Servant
Make me a servant, humble and meek

Lord, let me lift up, those who are weak.

And may the pray'r of my heart always be;

Make me a servant, make me a servant,

Make me a servant, today.


Nonetheless, my treasure lies in heaven above, and not below. On earth I've tasks to fulfill. Who cares about earthly treasures where backstabbers and jealousy can steal it all?

God bless
Joanne Lim
Webmaster@joannetmj.tk

How athletic are you?

I'm actually utterly shocked at how accurate this test was!

The Second Stringer You scored 73%

You are The Second Stringer. You train pretty hard sometimes. You're a pretty good performer. You just lack the intensity and drive that would take you to that final step. And maybe you're okay with that. Perhaps you're cursing this test as you read this, but deep down, you know you could be doing more, don't you? It's okay. You're welcome on my team... Just don't be surprised to sit out every now and then.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 59% on goals

Link: The How Athletic Are You Test written by dmhawkmoon on Ok Cupid

God, grant me the self-discipline needed to improve.. thanks =)

God bless
Joanne Lim
Webmaster@joannetmj.tk

Today in class my Science teacher brought a Van De Graaf electrostatic operator.

Hahaha! Amazing, 1 girl's long hair stood up! LOL! I could do nothing but laugh and laugh!

Anyway, I managed to get all an A for all my PMR subjects. I was hoping that I'd get 10 A's.. but I missed for Art. Arrgh. By a LARGE margin. Oh well. I got a 65%. Lol! Haven't gotten back my English paper though.

But I got an A for PJK! 78%!!! Kekekekekkeke. Really just tembak correctly. Wow!

I'm currently placed 3rd in class.. I need to beat the 2nd girl by ONE miserable mark to get 2nd in English. Lol. Hopefully I do.

Whatever I get, I just thank God. He really helped me.. Especially with some subjects. I mean, considering how last minute I was, my results are good. And when you leave things to Him, you're never disappointed. It's true! Try it =)

Funny how different people can have different opinions of a same person. If you asked my piano teacher, she's probably say I'm stupid. Lol! Sad, but true. Better to act stupid when you're not willing to work, right?

And as for people who know my brother and I.. they obviously think I'm stupid. Lol. Another sad, but true fact. Shucks, what can I do? Compare mah.. I don't have medals and certs to prove anything. Of course I've badminton trophies.. but hey, who looks at 'em?! The academic medals are practically treasured, in a nice display shelf for all to see. My badminton trophies? Hahahaha. I found a couple deep in a drawer. Who looks at those?

Studies more important.. don't play badminton so much...

Sorry, I'm sick and tired of those words already. The one thing I like I can't do!

Oh well. I'm not here to whine and complain. Okay, maybe I am. But I can't help it. No one else will understand. Lol. At least my bloggy understands.

Life ain't too happifying right? It ought to be.. God's with me. Nevertheless, perhaps these things will toughen me up. Perhaps I ain't as tough as I think myself to be. Time to lower myself to the idiotic fool I am.

Went out with a couple friends with my brother today to mamak stall at 10pm. I.. don't know. I supposed I wasn't exactly a total 'stranger'.. but I didn't totally fit in either.

The rest of them knew about this and that happening.. but usual case lah.. I didn't know much, if anything at all.

It's kinda hard.. when you've members your own age, yet they aren't your friends.. and the older ones well, look at you as the 'younger one'... so basically you hardly fit in anywhere. I try to lah.. but tak jadi. Still feel out of place. I CANNOT pretend to get interested in talking about things that youth nowadays are gila over. I CANNOT adapt to their way of talking, their way of thinking and so on.

Some people say I've got an 'old soul'. Some people say I missed the train to teen years, some say I took the express train to adulthood.

Whatever it is, it's obvious that I'm different from your standard teenager. Friends say, "WHAT?! Not interested in boys yet??!"and stuff like that. Oh, by the way, I AM straight.

That's all. I'm tired. 1.03am here. Good day to you all.

God bless
Joanne Lim
Webmaster@joannetmj.tk

I feel SICK.

Oh my goodness gracious me. EEEEWWW!!!

Why?

I drank Higher Colloids. Few of you will know what that is, even fewer would have tasted it before. It was HORRIBLE. My family has been taking it for the past 2 weeks, but I didn't want to.. so this afternoon I was bored.. guess what I did? I tasted a drop of it, and wondered why people didn't like it. It was slightly sourish.

Well, then I drank 20ml of it, as I'm supposed to. BELCH! When it reached the back of my tongue where my taste buds are more sensitive to bitter tastes.. I nearly.. VOMITED.

Trust me, it took great self-discipline to finish that 20ml.

I drank Pepsi Twist after that, ate Honey Stars, Chicken biscuit, sour stuff, and whatever else I could lay my hands on. EEEEEEWWWW!

I've a headache now, feel like vomiting.. and goodness knows what else.

EEW!

*Goes off to comfort my poor tummy. OUCH! Rubs tummy*

God bless
Joanne Lim
Webmaster@joannetmj.tk

I blew it. BIG time.

Why? Because people always ask me, "Why are you so happy all the time??? Why don't you ever get angry??"

I never really thought about the answer, and usually just give the answer, "Cause that's that way I am!"

I realised the reason. God is in me, and with me all the time. With Him, I've nothing to be happy about. Shout at me, abuse me, beat me, scream at me, nothing will get me down. Call me stupid, fat, ugly, idiot, fool, I don't care.

So I realisedthat I lost many many many chances to share my reason for happiness! Souls could have been saved...

In the end, I'm just another babbling fool who knows not what she says. Why didn't I THINK before I answered those questions??

Most of the people who asked me have stopped asking already... sigh.

~I'm sorry, Lord. A 2nd chance please??~

God bless
Joanne Lim
Webmaster@joannetmj.tk

Just had to post...

School's starting tomorrow. Sigh. Don't know why I'm not looking forward to school.. maybe because I didn't get to enjoy my holidays properly. Tournament 1st week, camp 2nd week. I enjoyed my holidays, but it was too busy to really feel like a holiday. If you get what I mean.

Just wanted to post something funny. During training my coach was telling us, "Look at where you hit the shuttle! Is it good, or bad? You have to judge for yourself!" He said the same to another girl, and followed by, "Was that good? No, it went underneathe the net, therefore it was very bad!"

LOL! Few, if any will laugh.. but I found it hilarious. LOL! In my coach's seriousness there was humour in it, perhaps he didn't realise it though.

Hehehe.

God bless
Joanne Lim
Webmaster@joannetmj.tk

Youth camp

Youth camp in Kuantan last Monday to Wednesday. My family stayed on till today.

How did it go?

Was great fun. Hehehe. Did a lot of travelling though. Even went to Terengganu just to eat!!! I was like, "WHAT?!" when I realised we were travelling to another state just to EAT!

Lol. Went to the waterfall, enjoyed myself. The chalet by the beach was nice too, perhaps I do enjoy nature after all. I could have just sat and watched the waves...

Played Pictionary the 2nd night, till 3am. Wow. Fun. Lol. When the guys were going back to their chalet we looked at the main road outside and saw an ambulance + many cars though. We realised that there was an accident.. and probably some people died. Why?

The ambulance was in no rush, sirens were not on, only the lights. If there was still hope of saving a life, the ambulance would have sped off. Actually we all heard loud sound a few hours earlier, but since it was raining and there was lightning, we thought it was thunder. It did sound like a crash to me, but still I pushed that thought aside and told myself, thunder.

Sad though. Don't speed in the rain!

Overall, I enjoyed myself.

God bless
Joanne Lim
Webmaster@joannetmj.tk

Hehehe

I enjoyed myself the past few days during the badminton tournament.

The kids were sooooo cute!!!! =D Some of them are barely taller than the racquets they hold! LOL. I'm talking about the U-10 players, of course. Wow. I never had the chance to join a tournament when I was their age.. hehehe.

But I pity them.. at such a young age they have to find out about losing.. there can only be 1 winner after all. Hehehe.

God bless
Joanne Lim
Webmaster@joannetmj.tk

It's Over...

Last day of tournament. So sad. Had great fun.

Anyway, singles I lost to her.. quite badly too. 2-11, 5-11. The first few points of the game were given away freely, no rallies at all. But by the 2nd game I did manage to have several long rallies. I got the service over quite a number of times, but didn't manage to score much.

Anyway, whether my standards are low or not, I'm actually quite satisfied with my match today, especially the 2nd set. The score may not show it, but it's what I know that counts, right? =P By the end of the game I was mentally exhausted. Lol. I cracked my brains to think and see how I could get points. Who ever said you don't think in badminton? Physically I was hardly tired.

I did discover my weak points, and plan to work on it as soon as I resume training.

Anyway, she turned out to be the champion of the U-15 girl singles.

I received a RSL badminton bag and trophy for runners up in U-15 girl doubles, and a semi finalist trophy + RSL shoe bag for U-15 girl singles in the winners pool. Received 2 30% off vouchers for RSL products too..except shuttlecock. Doubt I'll use it though.

There was a losers pool and a winners pool. Don't know why they had to put the word losers pool on the medals for the champs of the losers pool. Quite mean of them if you ask me.

Anyway, I've 1 1/2 years left in U-15 girls. As I walked off the stage, my coach told me, "Next time it'll be this," and he pointed at the champs trophy. Lol. Can't say anything.

God bless
Joanne Lim
Webmaster@joannetmj.tk

How it went today...

Today CP and I won our doubles game, gonna get silver. 21-7 I think.

Singles.. I'm frustrated.

First a BYE, now a walk over????! I didn't pay RM30 bucks for this kind of play!

So without even playing a singles game, I'm entering semi finals tomorrow. Sigh.

The girl I'm playing against was supposed to be disqualified, she's actually a Selangor circuit player. This tournament doesn't allow any state player/trainee. But after some discussion they didn't disqualify her, no idea why.

I don't mind anyway. If she had been disqualified, I'd enter into the finals WITHOUT PLAYING A SINGLE GAME! No thank you. Semi finals is bad enough, what more finals?

I'm kind of worried. I need to play my best tomorrow. I don't know, it's just a gut feeling. I've got to make her pathway into finals very very tough. It doesn't really matter whether I win or lose, if I win, good, if I lose, I wanna make her tired beyond tired.

Yes! I'm gonna do it. =D I need to be confident!

Anyway, today I watched many of the matches. Those with parents.. well.. are bound to go further. Their parents are so supportive! Dads even took leave for the whole week just to come for this tournament! Some families were practically 'camping' at the hall.

Those without parents.. well.. didn't strive so well. Honestly.

My coach once said we need several things to go far. Dedication, commitment etc. I basically can have all.. but parents support. And that was the one that he put the most emphasis on. I wonder how it feels like? Parents who are willing to fetch you for tournaments, stay there from 8am to 5pm, watch you play, encourage you when you just lost your service, proud of you when you win, correcting you without making you feel like the world's lousiest player...

I guess I'll never know. Oh well.

God, show me Your plan.

God bless
Joanne Lim
Webmaster@joannetmj.tk

Doubles today..

Lost 10-21.

The score is disappointing. Sigh. We were actually leading 10-6 or 7, then we just lost it. 2nd half of the game they just scored and scored.

We got the service many many times, but it was snatched back just as quickly.

Well.

Tomorrow going to fight for 2nd place.

And my singles.. no idea who my opponent is, but I will do my best to win. =D

God bless
Joanne Lim
Webmaster@joannetmj.tk