Why?

Why by Nicole Nordeman

We rode into town the other day
Just me and my daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide

We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man that my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said daddy why are they screaming
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts him more then he shows
Daddy please can't you do something?
He looks as though he's gonna cry
You said he was stronger then all of those guys
Daddy please tell me why?
Why does everyone want him to die?

Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide
So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross

And it said Father why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my clothes?
This crown of thorns hurts me more then it shows
Father please can't you do something?
I know that you must hear my cry's
I thought I could handle a cross of this size
Father remind me why?
Why does everyone want me to die?
When will I understand why?

My precious son
I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own
Jesus this hurts me much more then you know
But this dark hour
I must do nothing
Though I've heard your unbearable cries
The power in your blood
Destroys all of the lies
Soon you'll see past their unmerciful lies
Look there below
See the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell you why
She is why you must die


I woke up this morning with this powerful song playing in my head. I don't know why, that hardly ever happens, I normally wake up to nothing. Despite my extremely exhausted body dreading a wretchedly full day today, this song kept playing and playing in my mind.. over and over again.

It's things like these that just make me want to fall to my knees and pray like I've never prayed before. I've been a lackadaisical child, done so many things I oughtn't have done.. and yet He still welcomes me into His arms.

Thank you Lord for your mercy.. change me to be more and more like You.

Just realised dad's birthday is coming.. first birthday eversince he's left us for a better place.

Horribly tiring day ahead.. will probably reach home 11pm+. With the few hours of sleep I had, don't know how I'll get along. Hmm.. next sem no more, no more! At least I made this mistake in my first sem.. still can relax and fool around a bit.

Anyway, I'm off, class at 9am.

Have a less tiring day than mine,
Jo