Helloo.. :-)

No, really, I'm not bipolar. It's just that I have my ups and downs, like everyone else. :-) Hey, life ain't perfect!

But, it's a happy post today.

Okay, not really happy, just a light-hearted one.

6 weeks more to STPM! And Wai Yan told me that with 40 days to go, that's 10 days PER subject.. IF you're taking 4 subjects. And if I'm taking 5? That's less than 10 days per subject! -_- Which is not enough to cover any subject, unless you have them all at the tip of your finger tips. Which is untrue for me, cause I'm just starting some chapters TODAY. As in, completely untouched/unread before this.

But.. I thank God for showing me that there is still a flicker of hope for STPM, I did surprisingly okay for trials. :-) I guess He knew how close I was to giving up..

The one thing I don't wanna feel next year is REGRET. That's all. Regret is a horrible feeling that just gnaws into my conscience.. despite valiant attempts to shake it away. Regret was one emotion I didn't feel after SPM, simply because I knew I had given it my all, and left the rest to God.

This time, I admit, I didn't put in my whole heart, soul, mind, and strength into STPM, but I think I matured a lot spiritually and mentally as compared to pre-SPM days. But.. with 6 weeks left, I guess I better give it my all, and leave the rest to God. :-)

STPM is special to me. :-) Because:

1. I joined my fellow comrades in this battle 6 months late.

2. No pressure to emulate the elder brother this time (Pressure to get straight As in UPSR, PMR, SPM... Enough is enough la, I'm setting my own standard this time =P)! :-)

3. It's something I really, really, didn't want to do, especially not in SMK Taman SEA, but.. God has His own mysterious ways. Not that I mind, His ways are so much higher and unfathomable.

4. I've never had to juggle so so so so many issues with a major exam before. Before this it was only juggling between badminton, co-curricular activities, and studies.

5. Life has never been so challenging before, period. Oh yeah, growing up's tough. Not physically/biologically, but in so many other aspects. (Driving is fun when it's optional. When you're forced to drive, it becomes a burden. -_-)

Hehe, before I sign off, I'll share something I got on Facebook. You know, there's an application that tells you what 'God wants You to Know'. Haha, I may be a natural skeptic but I decided to add it, and while some days it gives me really mysterious messages that I simply don't bother understanding, today's was rather apt. :-)

Joanne got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...

... that you are only as free as you imagine yourself to be.

There is nothing ''out there'' that's holding you down, - you are limiting yourself only with ...your own imagination. And your greatest limits are not even the ''cannot'' and the ''should not'', but the places where your imagination hasn't yet gone at all. There has never been a better time for you to open your eyes, let the imagination soar and see what more is possible.

Okay I admit that sounds *slightly* humanistic. If God isn't in it, that is. So, with God, all things are possible. :-)

God bless ya,
Jo