Stresssss

Over nothing much.

That's the worst part.

I'm just worried over some MSSS paperwork.

I wish I can just play without worrying about paperwork, leave it to the teachers to handle everything. But nooooooooo, I've got to handle it all by myself. Which is 10 times harder because I go around chasing for signatures that teachers make me wait for simply because I am just a student, not a teacher. It's utterly exhausting you know, when you're sent from block to block, room to room, looking for various teachers who do not follow their timetables.. I went around the entire school looking for a teacher today until I finally heard that she was in the canteen.

Gah.

And then there's the political situation.

No, not in Perak.

In Petaling Utama district itself.

Politics is a DIRTY game, even at such a kuchi-brat level. I detest it. I've just seen how effective shoe-polishing/currying favour is. When someone who cannot play that well is given a spot over better players. Which I found utterly disgusting. I mean, I know if I'm not as good as others I'll be ASHAMED to take their rightful places.

The good thing is, I'm playing, not a substitute.

The bad thing is, my good friends have been hurt badly.

The worst thing is, I can't do anything about it.

The kind of school teachers we have these days really makes me disillusioned about the entire education system.

Don't get me wrong, I have some REALLY AWESOME teachers that make me feel like I ought to become a teacher just so I can help students the way they do.

But finding such good teachers is like trying to find a needle in the haystack nowadays.

I'm tired. :-(

And honestly speaking, not really looking forward to my first, and last, MSSS tournament. It's tiring, hectic, stressful.

Bleh. I've got less than 10 months to go as a schoolgirl. Can't wait to be done!

I'll miss my guitar during my few days in Hulu Langat(MSSS). :-(

God bless,
Jo