Breaking apart..

Political upheavals.

In the country.

In my life.

Okay, let's be honest, I'm just a very very interested bystander who monitors the political upheavals in our country. Not that I can get involved anyway. Then again, I probably can, I just choose not to..

As for the political upheavals that are closer to my heart..

It hurts. It used to anger me, a lot. I harboured plenty of anger. Then I thought I had put all of it behind me...

But things that aren't settled generally tend to haunt you. At least, that's the case for me. I met up with an old friend recently, and to hear some things that I was unaware of... the anger didn't return. Instead, hurt, pain, confusion arose. It hurts, to see an interwoven circle breaking apart. I may have been on the outer part of it, but I was as much a part of it as the other parts. Now to see it frayed, breaking apart, with no real effort to keep it together.. it hurts. I may no longer be a part of it, but I still feel the pain it's causing to people whom I care about.

And with no one to turn to.. the people around me are too closely tangled up in it all to give sound advice. I've had more than enough of harsh criticism, or worse still, backless, cowardly, defence.

Ah, all I want right now is a utopian life.

Since that will never happen, I'll do what I completely forgot to do from the beginning.

Help me, Lord?