Called up Bahagian Pendidikan Guru(BPG), Ministry of Education(MOE) yesterday. Rather, I asked mom to call, you know lah these adults, won't entertain students very well. Anyway, they gave us the procedures on how to quit this course. Which they seemed really uncertain. Do so few trainee teachers quit teaching colleges?? Looking at IPDA I'm surprised I seem to be the pioneer. Lol. Yeah, seriously. IPDA's people were like, "Apa prosedur lagi??" (What's the next procedure??). Hahaha.
Good thing I started from the top. I knew that if I started from IPDA, I would encounter a lot of delay and obstacles. Once IPDA knew I had already asked BPG they couldn't say much. *Hint, to all who want to quit IPDA, go through BPG first*
People were in shocked though when I told them I'm quitting this course. I know many many many people are unhappy in IPDA, I can honestly say I've never seen so many unhappy students putting themselves through such torture in a single learning institute before. Except maybe in prison..
So many of my coursemates always sigh and regret coming here. For me, before this, I disliked the place, the environment, the stifling rules, but I stuck on.. as I blogged before, because of this course. Because I enjoyed the course, and because I want to become a teacher. I have always told my coursemates, if you don't want to become a teacher, why stay on in this course?
Thankfully, my aim has never been Portsmouth (blogged that before too). Otherwise I would have a harder time letting go of this course.
Anyway, I talked to my teacher, she told me about university life.. and the lines that struck me were, "These next few years should be the best years of your life." How very true. The transition between teenage years to adulthood should be great because basically we get to enjoy the best of both worlds.
But lately, even before dad's case, I've been finding myself.. stifled. I find myself yearning for more challenges. Must be why I seem to impress my literature lecturer so much. With the brain disallowed to explore and expand all my energy has been concentrated on literature. Haha. So all I do is interpret all my literature texts to my utmost satisfaction. I tell you ah, if I had this kinda brain power for SPM Eng. Lit. last year I would have been one heck of a literature student. Hahaha! I long for deeper discussions.. I don't know exactly what I found myself yearning for, but it's for something more challenging I suppose.
And no, I mean real brain challenges. Not challenges to race against the deadline to finish assignments. Out of 4 assignments so far, 3 of them have suddenly been 're-briefed' by our lecturers at the very last minute. Meaning when many of us have finished our assignments and are ready to hand in our drafts, our lecturers suddenly realise the folly of their earlier briefing and decide to brief us ALLL OVER AGAIN. In other words, we have to change our entire assignment to their new format etc. Oh, not to mention that when some students have stayed up the entire night trying to meet the deadline due to this 'awesome' last-minute system,they suddenly decide to extend the dateline. It's no good for nerves, I tell you.
And the sole assignment that didn't require a re-briefing? The lecturers didn't give two hoots about it, that's why. And even that wasn't 'disaster-free', so to speak. Our question paper never did state the time to hand in (normally the question states hand in by (date), 12 noon, or 4pm). So we assumed that this meant it would be 4pm. Guess what? At 11.55am the lecturer informs us that those who hand in after 12noon would have their marks deducted. We had people running all the way from the library to hand in their assignments. Even then I don't know how many were late. But were we really late, or just another reflection of sheer incompetence on the lecturers' part?
Early in our semester they(lecturers) promised that we could find them anytime for problems in assignments, we could hand in our drafts to any of them, they would check etc etc etc. All lies, I tell you. Yeah, seriously. I've never found myself so broken over these blatant forgotten promises/assurances. When we students ask lecturers to check our drafts, the lecturers tell us that they are too busy, or tell us to find our own lecturer(even though our lecturer isn't around), or just skim through the entire draft without reading, just checking that we have all our parts a, b, c, etc inside, or better still, "May I have the question, please?"
It's frustrating. None of my drafts have ever been checked, and honestly speaking even if I had decided to continue in this course I won't hand in my drafts anymore.
I'm glad I'm leaving this course. Seriously. I thought I would get used to it, and life seemed to be going uphill for a few days or so. Then the lecturers start their last minute re-briefings again. I don't know how much more we can take, it's not that we are last minute, we are doing DOUBLE the workload! We finish our assignments, and find out it's all wrong. In our lecturers' eyes, anyway. And we are given limited time to redo the entire assignment. I really don't know what that is called.. if I've to go through this the entire 2 years... it's as if we do our assignments and just wait to be told that we are all wrong, and have to redo entire assignments. They are ever so fearful of 'Portsmouth people coming to check.' My question is, "Who's paying who? Portsmouth is paying Malaysia??" If the lecturers deem themselves good enough to be English lecturers and examiners, why do they fear these 'Portsmouth people' so much??
Sorry lah just a lil' frustrated cause today was another 're-briefing' day. And more 'Portsmouth people coming to check' lines.
IPDA still trying to give me trouble though over leaving. They want me to return after Raya. I told them no, I have to start form 6. And I do not intend to come back and sit around like these few days when I know I'm leaving anyway. If they want to force me back after Raya, I'll just.. not go. It's so simple. They can kick me out then, whichever requires less paperwork. The BPG makes is so so so simple to get out. IPDA is practically giving me hell about it. Okay, not that much, because I emphasised many many many times, that BPG said I can leave before paperwork is done, as long as IPDA gives me the green light. Unfortunately, IPDA doesn't want to give me the green light. They said they must get the approval from BPG first. Which the BPG people specifically said will take time, and I can leave as long as IPDA approves. Haiz, IPDA IPDA, why do you enjoy tormenting students such?
I tell you, if not for dad's case I'll be going through the deepest level of hell IPDA could possibly think of right now. Even with his case I'm given such a hard time over it. Drained emotionally and physically lately, this added stress from them just piles it all on.
But it's been going pretty smoothly lah, better than I expected. For one I've not been sent to see the Pengarah/Timbalan Pengarah.. yet.
Oh well. God is in control. =)
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