JPA interview..

Was short-listed for the JPA scholarship interview, 1st April, 10am.

Haha, April fool!

Yeah right. Serious one leh.

Yes, I mean it!

Anyway, I feel.. out of my league.

Seriously.

To be considered a top student...

I mean, I did pretty well in school, but when you're talking top top, I was never top of my form/school. Suddenly in SPM I'm beating people whom I've never even come close to beating in terms of academic results before.

I feel.. out of my league. That's the only way to describe my feelings. I really feel undeserving of such excellent results. If others who are better students than me had done just as well, perhaps I'll feel better. But no..

Still, all the time I've just done my best and left the rest to God. After hours of exhausting study when I feel I need to study more but was just too tired to do so, I used to talk to God.. leaving all my worries in His wonderful hands. He has always granted me sleep even when I'm worried or stressed out. Sleep is a wonderful gift, you know that? Not many can sleep peacefully when they have the anxieties of the world on their shoulders.

Anyway, will just go through the JPA interview the same way I get through important stuff in life.. Going in, giving everyone around me a good time, leaving it in God's hands and feeling satisfied. =)

I'll be competing with kiasu people with really wonderful outstanding achievements! *groans* I'll be fighting for a chance to talk on a given topic with 8-12 other people! *lagi groans* I'll encounter people with super large brains! *enormous groan*

Hahaha. Doesn't sound fun, right? haha. Oh well, it's something pretty exciting and I think I'll enjoy it. Hehehe.

I realise that the only scholarship I'm really hoping to get is the TESL one.

But in any case, I'm leaving it all to God. =)