Hehehehe =)

Trials are over, and I think, I THINK, I didn't do too badly, in fact, I may just improve from last term! :-) Because I worked harder this term. hehe. I didn't give up halfway, that is. (It all depends on your first paper, if you feel you did fine, then you'll have more mood to study.)

Anyway, yeah, STPM's coming, closer and closer..

And thinking about STPM reminded me about the AFTER it too.

That's where the real thinking starts.

Hmmm..

The Spices lady wants me to work with the special kids first, before 'you decide what to do'.

My Eng. Lit. teacher thinks I should consider majoring in Eng. Lit., and then lecturing.

My family thinks I should consider studying overseas in some 'prestigious university'.

Some friends think I'm gonna 'waste your brains' if I just confine myself to some simple course.

My teachers think I shouldn't become a teacher.. 'wasted'.

Some other friends think I'm doomed cause I 'threw away 2 full overseas scholarships'.

Still others think I should do a 'useful, professional course' that will guarantee me a 'good job'.

As for me...

Arrgh. You ask me, the secular desire I have, would be to do a double-degree, which can't be done in Malaysia. The combination? Special Education and English Literature.

But an overseas education will require a scholarship. Mmm, which, I don't think I can get from the government anymore. And scholarships require excellent results. EXCELLENT, not the way I'm barely floating now.

As for teaching, I'm really not sure about it anymore. I was adamant about teaching at one point, I know, but life and circumstances have changed so much that I'm quite a changed person too.

Ish, I'm not even sure about Special Education and English Literature anymore.

And again, I'm reminded, that I've left it all in His almighty hands, and that if only I'll leave things to Him, everything will not be disastrous (unlike 2008).

Into Your hands I commit myself, Lord.