I envy...

I envy...

My previous life.

I miss...

My freedom.

I wish...

I could serve without persecution.

I long for...

God to whisk me away to some unknown land(severe repercussions expected)

Now I remember why I was relatively eager to run off to some ulu place in Kedah.

I'm dying to run off again, more so than before, but due to current circumstances.. I cannot.

And just before my mid-term exams too. Am I destined to fail form 6 with circumstances being so nasty towards me? Each time I try to get down and study something is bound to pop up that leaves me feeling riled and nothing enters my head after that.

haha, perhaps I may as well aim for some uni in Sabah/Sarawak. It's even farther than Kedah, after all. Oxford? Even farther, but considering I think I'm closer to 5Ds than 5 solid As it's totally out of question.

I'll settle for hiding in the library for now. Libraries close so early though.

God, easier trials please. I never asked it to be this tough.