Form 6

T A H N I A H !

Anda ditawarkan untuk mengikuti pengajian ke Tingkatan 6 Bawah

Fantastic, ain't it?

Sigh.. form 6.. I want to change schools.. but which school? Never mind, will update my blog about that if I manage to change schools..

In a way, I'm looking forward to having a.. 'community' again, what with most of my friends in college by now.. But lazy to study lah.. form 6 some more.. I mean, if 12A1s can't secure me anything, then how will STPM with a CGPA of 4.0 secure anything?

I've got to thank others for supporting me during this rather trying time though. People have been telling me to have faith..

So I'll like to thank all of you who have faith in me and tell me to have faith in our Father above..

As I've recently come to realise.. sometimes, to surrender is the hardest thing of all. It's like that story of where a man refuses to let go of his rope even when God told him to let go for fear he plunges to his death from a cliff.. only to be found frozen, a few feet away from the bottom of the cliff the next day.

I've let go, I've surrendered long ago. But sometimes I find myself dangling helplessly on that rope again, my earlier faith and trust gone.

On a side note, I went to Kiwanis today. One of the kids came running to me and hugged me as I've been MIA(missing in action) for 2 weeks.. a lil' girl ran to me and held my hand immediately. Another lil' girl, one who is constantly in a world of her own as she is not only has down syndrome, but is autistic too, came towards me and held my hand.. One lil' boy climbed on the sofa next to where I was sitting to say hi. Another lil' guy kept looking up at me to ensure that I was paying attention to him during his lesson. =)

It's kids like these who make my day. Nope, not intelligent adults who know it all, but kids who suffer from mental disabilities who can so easily put a smile on my face and make me realise again why I should aim for what I want despite what others may say.

It feels good to know that you've been missed, and made me sorry for my earlier state the past 2 weeks that caused me not to show up.

Indeed, these kids whom others see as having nothing to offer the world can teach us so many lessons, if only we'll spend time with them and try to learn from them for a moment. So many of them have been through all kinds of operations, I've no doubt that pain is a part of their world, something most blessed kids out there don't experience at such tender ages. And yet they trod through life the way we all do, only they persevere so much more to learn things we take for granted. If they had normal speech and all I've no doubt they will display a lot more maturity and wisdom than you and I could ever hope to attain.

Just 3 hours of working with them and I feel so free, no longer hampered by worries.

There's so much more I want to post but am too tired, 2.50am now.

Have a blessed day,
Jo