Life Goes On..

Kiwanis appeared in the newspaper yesterday, 22 Feb 2008, Friday.

Hehehe. I wasn't in the photos, but I was there.. to watch the Philharmonic performance. I was expecting a... well, an orchestra. :-P There were so many MPO(Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra) adults, I thought there would be a huge performance.. in the end there were only a few violinists.. ini dipanggil potong stim. Hahaha! But still, pretty enjoyable. The children.. not many of them appreciated it lah, many of them had parents who constantly played catching with them.

Whatever happens after SPM results.. I'll have to stop volunteering there in a few months.. :'-(.. They've been great kids..

SPM results.. Haiz.

You know, I want it to come out, so that my future isn't so terumbang-ambing.. but I don't want it to come out at the same time.. it's a conflicting emotion that I'm pretty certain most SPM candidates of my batch are facing..

Then again, many of them have already decided their future. Or, as I said before, have parents who decided for them.

Sometimes I wonder which is worse, to be undecided, or to live out your parents dreams..

Oh, I'm certain of what field I want to enter. But the details are still fuzzy.

But whenever I begin to worry I remember that in the end, God has my future in His hands.. what more can I ask for?

I've told Him time and again, seeing I've really no strong inclination for a certain ambition, He can use me anyway He wants. I know people and friends who are certain of what they want to do. Well, they'll have to seek God's will for that.. for me, it's anything that God puts me into..

The thought of entering form 6 is.. well, not an overly pleasant thought. I've enjoyed my schooling years. I have never once looked back and said, "I hate school!" If anything, I enjoyed it, plunge myself whole heartedly into activities I liked.. and studied reasonably hard.. Yep, no regrets at all.

"So why not enter form 6?" You ask.

I said I've no regrets. I've maximised my enjoyment in school. I never minded wearing my uniform(was a prefect from standard 3 to form 5). Nothing like a different uniform from the rest to make you feel high and mighty, eh? But I was a pretty useless prefect in all, haha. Got the Prefect of the Month badge 2 or 3 times though, in form 5. Nothing short of surprising, right? haha!

I attended more camps than my 10 fingers can count.

I've won badminton tournaments, running events...

I've won school quizzes..

Represented school in several quizzes, tournaments, essay writing..

Held posts in various clubs and societies.. Yellow House, CF, History & Geography Club...

Captain of the Badminton team...

Helped teachers in various ways.. from carrying stuff to typing in data to running from class to class and block to block..

Arguments with our dearest PK Koko..

Class parties, club parties.. you name it.

Staying up all night to do club stuff..

And the list goes on..

Seems like a pretty good list, no?

But..

I've used school up!!!

If there's such a thing. I'm trying to put it in a.. metaphoric way? Whatever it's called. It's like this.. You eat from a Chokie-Chokie(Choky-choky??).. you know, the tube of chocolate.. and you enjoy it while it lasts. Then you finish the tube, and throw it away. You've no regrets consuming it, but if anyone were to ask you to pick up that tube and eat from it again, won't you feel disgusted?? "But I've already finished that!" You'll whine.

Well, the thought of going back to school is like that. I know some friends miss school. Truth of the matter is, I don't. Like I've said, I enjoyed school, I took the opportunity to enjoy it, and feel it is time to go on.

But hey, that decision really isn't in my hands.

If I'm to go form 6, by all means I'll throw myself into the school life again.. less cheerfully, perhaps concentrating more on books..

I don't know.

I seem to be imitating Janice. =P

But seriously.

I don't know.


God bless
Joanne Lim
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