Nooo -_-

Elaine deleted her Facebook, just when I was about to release stress on her wall!

Yan did the sameee thing! Eh Yan I wanna meet you in library laah, I sleep too much at home. -_- Haha!

Life is sad when you gotta start blogging TO people because there's no other mode of communication!

Ok, fine, I can sms, but my phone is shooo far away...

Miss those days of having fun in church, right right??

Haha, just a stress-releasing post, am gonna be DONE with 1st year on May 12th! After that... hehehe! Last day Thai paper.. last sem I walked out of the whole a full hour earlier and my Thai lecturer wasn't too happy with me... so tempted to do that again this sem... mmm not as if I'm taking Thai next sem onwards anyway, don't need to keep in anyone's good books.. hmm... Thai paper is like that, either you know or you don't know, no extra time will help you. Except if you're fervently hoping for a lightbulb moment, sit as long as you want in that case!


Bingbingbongbong =) Gonna be dooone!


Haha, still have another 4 papers to go before I'm done though.


Pointless post, really.

God bless,
Jo

Yo yo!

Updates updates updates.


I've been sleeping like a pig the past few days. -_- Really, like wake up 2pm every day. Zzz.


Haha kononnya long break between exam papers so I'm supposed to study. =(

Anyway, Easter Powerkids done! And thank God it went well, from worship to games to food to shadow play to the message shared! =) Truth be told, I don't mind becoming in charge of such an event again, the people whom I assigned responsibilities to did awesome jobs! AWESOME. =) Everyone got right into the spirit of things and gave their all. Hehe.

Besides that, I got my first A for a course that was sooo freaking hard I thought my A would be gone. Scraped by with an 84%. =)

Don't know if I can maintain my 4.0 CGPA this sem, will try, but hmm haha uni life is just getting tougher, and my zest to get 4.0 is not so strong anymore. *will try will try*


Talked to a few old friends yesterday, friends I made when I was much younger.. and well well, the problems we face now, the issues we talk about now.. so much more 'grown-up' than our younger days. Still, it was a good catching up session, and I'm very glad that all of them are making headway in life! =)

*Eh future Singaporean English Literature teacher, you rock! ;-)*

Today Pos Laju-ed a birthday present to dad-in-law, hahaha I hope it makes it to Kuantan without breaking! 2 mugs with Harley Davidson-looking bikes on them. =) Padded with a towel! Tried to find a Harley miniature model but didn't manage... hmm, very hard to find these kinda models lah, been looking everywhere! Father and son both into bikes, haha gifts are rather easy eh ;-) If only it were easier to find bike models... *keeps looking*

The hubby has been busy with business and studies, *I'll always be here to support you k my dear =)*

And I've been busy with... sleeping and studies. -_- *Feels guilty* And playing the guitar and piano and onlining. Ok la, I don't online so much these days... Catching up on AN ENTIRE sem's sleep I guess, this sem has been one crazy, sleep-deprived one. Sleep-deprived means I slept even less than my hubby, and THAT means I hardly slept. Cause HE hardly sleeps!

Inspite of all that, give me uni any time as compared to my schooling days. =) The 'intellectual atmosphere' in uni is so so sooo comforting, I feel happy! Knowledge doesn't actually mean eating up textbooks for exam here (Apart from stupid university courses like Hubungan Etnik and TITAS and APK), it goes far beyond textbooks. In fact, in all my English and Southeast Asian Studies courses there are no textbooks, and we're expected to research on our own online and in the library. =) It's tough at times I admit, having been brought up all my life in a rigid, text-book based system (apart from English Lit), but it's something I enjoy lah. =) Yep, Imma 'nerd' at heart. Hahaha! (Though I could go into a debate with you about the definition of a 'nerd'... but most Malaysians can't tell the difference so why bother?)

Heart wants to rejoin UM's SUKMUM badminton team.. :( See how lah...

Ok, 3.56am... I'll stop here, have a blessed day!

God bless,
Jo

Ding Ding Dong Dong

Church people say they've not seen me in ages.

PKV people say the same.

Truth is, I'm frantically running back and forth between these 2, maybe that's why both don't see me that much. (On top of uni work lah.)

I've got to decide on one lah. I'm nearly on duty for something or other in church every week, it's the rare occasion when I have TWO weeks in a row of being duty-less. As for PKV, I admit I don't spend as much time with them since I've moved out of hostel..

Like Ps. Ong told me when I told him about how I realised I'll have to pick one.. He said I'll eventually have to prune and decide which area and place I'll be able to serve the best in. He said, "You mean PKV can SURVIVE without you on the committee??" Haha! Yes, they can. Very very well, in fact. I'm not a useful member.

Not to mention that I'll like to have more time to spend with my awesome pawesome coursemates =)

Just thinking incoherently now, am exhausted. But have to study for a test. zzz!

Just got a sweet sms from a church member wondering if I had 'sesated' because I seem to have disappeared from church. =) (Which I haven't, but just no time to hang out with them because I'm either on duty for something or gotta run off after service. Which of course defeats the whole purpose of church-FELLOWSHIP.) Haha, I've never once stayed at home on a Sunday morning ever since I joined PPBC, if I've missed church it's because I'm away at camp/Malacca/some event/something lah. That is, until about 3 weeks ago. To cut a long story short, I didn't have a car, and Elaine kindly offered to fetch me when I informed her at 10am, but I was already back in bed (was during my gilar hectic few weeks so I lacked sleep) so I declined her offer. Haha. That afternoon Joash and I went for lunch.. and talk about KANTOI. -_- Bumped into ALL the young people in church who were celebrating Yan's birthday. Sigh. The FIRST time I ever simply skipped church (in PPBC la) I've got to meet all of them. Zzz.

Hahahaha. My my. Anyway, if you think I'm too busy dating and don't have enough time for other things... lemme assure you that my poor BF has not gone on a proper date with me in the longest of times. I can't even remember our last real date...?? We went for a movie about a month plus ago but that was it, just a movie before we both had our own things to do again. Haha. We do plenty of late night study dates though, we're busy busy busy students! (Especially him, can you imagine being busier than me?? He is!)

Last Sunday made a last-minute day trip to Kuantan because he had something urgent to collect, we attended service there. Very comfortable atmosphere, the church there. :-) Had a very good trip, the hubby was worried I couldn't spare the time cause I had a test the next day and a few tests this week, but I felt like I needed the break. And it brought me an awesome break, albeit a short one. After service we had EIGHT people's share of kai fan between the 4 of us (parents in law brought us =D) and then the father-in-law brought us on a 'car tour' to show this PJ gal the true meaning of Kuantan. Haha! They pointed out places I would have played when I was a mere toddler in Kuantan, and surprisingly I think I actually have SOME form of memory about some of those places! They even pointed out where I used to stay.. hahahaha that one I really don't know. =P

Was a very good, relaxing trip, mum-in-law had a good chat with me hehe, cute aunty with excellent advice! Dad-in-law was a typical dad and enlightened me on LYNAS. Haha! Glad to have made that trip to Kuantan, too short but nevermindla, sneak preview to our next one, eh sayang? ;-)

The in-laws knew me as a kid and vice versa, how often do we get this kinda privileged background before meeting your future hubby?? =D Looking forward to the next trip when I've got less things on my mind, no tests the next day, and more time to enjoy Kuantan!

Ok, I should study now, test tomorrow!

God bless,

Jo

Growing Up's Tough.. but Fun

It's rather pressurizing when entire events lie on your shoulder. If you don't work on them, nothing will be done. -_-

Am in charge of the entire Easter for Powerkids/Sunday School! Eg. Worship, Games, Play, Food... etc. And the aunties/teachers are turning to ME when they have questions! -_- *so scary and odd*

Hmm. Things will work out...

They will! =)

God bless,

Jo

=D

Handed in my final 2 heavy assignments today! =D

Hehe. Week 13, Friday is finally here!

Final week next week before exams, having a few tests and a presentation =) But happy mappy! =D Nearly over!

Haha.

Heading to Kuantan this Sunday for a day trip, hubby has something urgent there so we're going... I'll get to see his new castle! =D Mum-in-law smsed a rather lengthy sms and said she's looking forward to seeing us there.. so am I! =) Haha, cute family = cute son!

Yesterday's bro's fish required mouth surgery, was comical to see him and Joash both attempting to repair its mouth -_- The small tiny yellow thing outsmarted 2 grown men by jumping everywhere, but eventually gave up the fight. I'm surprised the fish is still alive today, albeit its mouth is now 'cracked' and retarded-looking. (Yeah it was a completely FAILED surgery, poor fish.)

Ok, I'm not making much sense today, but just wanted to post a relatively happier post =D Heading to bed now!

God bless,

Jo

Btw, it's been about 7 months now since I started seeing Joash.. time flies eh? Longer than 7 months if you count the 'sms stage'. I've realised that relationships CAN last, after all. =) Thanks to Joash I've learnt that.. <3 you my dear!

I have been...

... sleeping 3 - 4 hours everyday the past few weeks, except for last Saturday morning (7 hours! =D)

... so busy I feel as if I have no time to breathe properly

... so tired I no longer feel tired, merely accepting and numb to the fact that work has to be done

... longing to have catch-up sessions with friends, friends who sms and call me just to talk, but we're too busy to meet face to face :-(

... in dire need of a real holiday (where I don't need to wake up to an alarm clock, do any thinking about work)

... in dire need of a real date (=P study date not counted!)

... exhausted with life

... wasting precious minutes with this blog post

Okay, back to assignments! It'll all be over soon!

God bless,

Jo

Hectic Gilar

Was in campus from 10am to 10.30pm today. -_- Without a hostel to run back too! (Ok, fine I could have easily bunked in any friend's hostel bed but I wanted to feel fruitful so I spent my free time in the library before heading off for emcee rehearsal at 8pm).

Business Project, Emcee, Assignments, Exams, Quizzes, Presentations, EVERYTHING in the next few days, weeks.

Awfully tiring. -_- Supposed to goto McD at 4am today but I really, really, tak larat, tried to stay up for it, but cannot la. Sorry Yan, hope you read this AFTER your 'birthday surprise'. Haha.

Apart from spending 2 hours in an English class, I spoke Malay the whole entire day today, and by 10.30pm I was feeling a desperate need for English!

Feels odd that I'll be emceeing in English during my Asia Tenggara dinner although none of my AT coursemates have ever heard me speak English to them. -_- It's an odd, odd world. Let's hope they understand me, eh?

Bed bed bed,

Jo

=)

*Contentment*

Had a good day today.

You know why. =)

Hehe.

Although in terms of work and finishing assignments, nothing was done, but it's been a very good day. =)

Dear blog..

I survived this week. /hæ̀ləlújə préz ðə lɔ́rd/!

hahahaha. =) /ájm ɪn lə́v/!

Ok, enough funny funny words.

I've had a rather brutal week, me thinks, with 4 hours of sleep per night.

As I contemplated over this semester, I realised that the source of stress is from my *insert vulgar language here* APK project. It's some business project in which I was dumped in a random group of 20 people, and I'm not getting the cooperation I need for a non-stressful project. And it gets more frustrating when you see your fellow English coursemates (our original plan was to form out own group before UM decided for us -_-) all struggling in THEIR respective *insert vulgar word here* groups because of the same problems.

So, technically ya, this sem has gone awesomely well, if not for that /ǽshòl ə́v ə prɑ́dʒɛkt/. The worry about it is constantly playing on the back of my mind ever since I became group leader of this group. So that's about, 10 weeks of worrying so far? No wonder lah I'm sooo tired!

But it'll end soon. And I've got a loving hubby who's more than willing to show me how to do a business plan. (Trust my lecturer to leave us hanging and not knowing how to even do a business plan. -_- ) And willing to bring me to the heart of KL with prostitutes and pimps and gangsters to source for my business things. θǽŋks dɪ́r!

Life's tiring, but good! =) Gonna rough it out these few weeks, then after that it's a blissful 4 months of taking care of hubby, making sure he doesn't rempit so much holidays and going back to Down Syndrome kids. =)

Going off now!

God bless

Jo

Stress.

Stress + Assignment = Arrgh.

Stress + Assignment + Other non-assignment-related-work = ARRRRGGGGHHH.

Extreme stress + AssignmentS + Other non-assignment-related-but-important-work = Death Sentence.

Somehow last semester was so much easier although I was involved in so many things - badminton, squash, piano, guitar, debate, Chinese class.

=(

Should I go for...

EARC?

ThePlan11?

Sweep's out, cause I think 2 weeks is a bit too much of a commitment, what with my guitar exam coming soon.

EARC's good, but it's RM518.. hmmm... it'll be good exposure though. On the other hand, the purpose of EARC itself isn't exactly on my heart.

ThePlan11... missionary! I went for ThePlan09, like a month before my STPM trials at that time.. it was good, awesome exposure. Unfortunately our plans to follow-up on each other(within my group) faded away after a while. Haha. It's RM300 if I register early...

Truth be told, Sweep's the thing that's really on my heart. Social work. Hmmm. But.. it's 2 weeks! If I don't attend Sweep, I can attend church camp instead. =D

Or maybe I won't go for any. Haha. Just stick to my working with awesomely cute down syndrome kids in Kiwanis lah, right? =) That's the real thing anyway, not 'exposure'. I miss them kids... getting back my zest for life slowly now... =)

Work? 4 months break? (But no job will pay me as good money as JPA does now..) Haha! The only thing I can do that'll more money than some RM4.00 per hour job is giving personal tuition (few hours and I'm a hundred bucks richer!), but that requires commitment beyond 4 months. Cause I'm serious about my teaching and don't believe in leaving my students in the lurch. Anyway I'm not targetting to buy anything at the moment, so won't really be in desperate need of money. Just live on JPA lah. I did my part di as a student, now can shake leg a bit since got scholarship...

Should I go... to... Kuantan? haha! This one confirm di laaar, since the in-laws emailed me the photos of their new castle! (Rusa, bila?) It's a direct hint to visit them instead of them asyik visiting my PJ! Lol. Cute people =)

I'll be going to Bali! =)

And if possible I wanna bawak the bf around Melaka =)

*So many plans*

hahaha.

Liddat no need to attend EARC/ThePlan11/Sweep di lah.

Forgive my Manglish post, excited di thinking of me horridays!

Stwess!

Character Analysis Assignment

Pembentangan Asia Tenggara

Rancangan Perniagaan

Easter Powerkids

PKV's Easter

Short Essay

Hari APK

Theory test

Novel assignment

Pronunciation test

Thai class oral test

Asia Tenggara Assignment

(Just completed) Hubungan Etnik assignment

And probably a few more that I missed out...

My my, and all except one is on/due next week.

-_-

Zzz.

Not to mention my preparation for grade 6 classical guitar exam.

'Tis ok, I'm fine. =) Will just have to take a few deep breaths, and get everything done by this weekend.

Good thing I've got Nescafe in me now.

Thank God for a mom and bro who are willing to pack my meals back home for me. =)

Thank God for a hubby who delivers breakfast at 6am in the morning. Haha! Eh, on his own accord one, I never once asked for such pwincessy treatment! (Poor fella, I'll take care of you better k during my 4 month break. =) Good thing you're such an understanding hubby!)

*Off to do more reading*

We'll survive! We will!

God bless,

Jo

UMUMUMUM

Sitting in UM waiting for my next class...

Am exhausted!! Siiigh.

I predicted this would be a long, tiring sem because it's a freaking 10 consecutive weeks of lecture without a single break. Even the 2 public holidays were on my lightest of days. :( My foreshadowing of an exhausting semester is most unfortunately proving to be right.

For the most part, I would be fine if I weren't stuck in a group project with people I don't know and don't want to do work. A 20 people group project and I'm practically running a one man show!!! Not by choice, mind you.

Zzzzzzzzz.

On the plus side, I've got awesome coursemates. If only I could concentrate fully on my major I would be plenty happy.

So tired!

Just being grumpy cause I had a replacement 8am class today and I detest early classes.

Zzzzzz have a good day!

God bless,
Jo

And hello again =)

Just felt like blogging today.

Hmmm...

What about?

*thinking thinking*

Okay, I'll answer the question so many people seem to ask me.

How did I meet Joash?

He picked me up from the bus stop. To rescue me from taking the cramp, crowded, sure-to-get molested bus. =P Using his Ducati with only a single seat so I had to squeeze real tight and hug him. The very first time I met him.

So romantic, hor??

Please laaah I value myself more than that, hahaha where got simply hug hug guys one! Guys simply touch me di I get angry!

Okay. Hmm. We met online. Eh don't play play k! Cyber love! Hahahahaha!

Chatted and chatted... *love bloomed*

Yeah right lah. 'Tis so easy to fall in love online these days I'm a skeptic on cyber love.

Truth is, I met him in Kuantan when I stayed there.

Oh, did I mention that I used to live in Kuantan when I was 2, 3 years old? Haha don't be illogical lah, I barely remember anything from those days, what more meeting a cute 4 year old boy!

Okay, none of the above is true. Haha.

You're not getting the truth here.

Would you believe things just happened between the two of us one random day?

Yeah, something like that. :-) That's about as close to the truth as we can get.

We've known each other for a while di lah... wasn't some random guy falling for a random gal and vice versa. =)

I let him do all the chasing though =P Now that was the fun part!

I know I'm totally evading the how we met question. ;-) That's for us to know!

God bless,
Jo

It's been exactly a year...

'Twas a Thursday last year, at 7.10pm that you breathed your last...

You spent your last few hours gasping for breath... Moaning in pain at some points...

My complete absolute helplessness...

I remember chatting to ko on MSN while he was rushing back from Australia...

My sudden realisation as I chatted that I could no longer hear you laboring over each breath...

My rushing over to your bed to check...

My calling out to mom in a numb, shocked, calm manner...

She rushing over...

Me telling ko that you've left us for a better place... He was but some hours away from seeing you...

The instant support people provided when they heard the news...

(Haha, Andrea came and brought me Kit Kat and hugged me that very night! My mum still remembers you as the girl who walked in and hugged her without any qualms of seeing dad on the bed! Thanks Andrea =P)

And the rest, memories of everything I had to do the next few days, the numbness...

Later I was told that so many worried for me cause I showed no emotion.

Guess I've just got a stupid belief that showing emotions are for the weak.

Can't say what my stand is anymore regarding that belief, so much has happened...

Anyway dad, I'm happy with my current station of life,

If things hadn't turned out the way it did on September 16, 2008, I would be on a completely different path now.

Don't know where I would be, don't know if I would be contented...

(Doubt Joash and I would ever have crossed paths ;-) )

And one of my principles is to never say 'if' and look back with regret.

To look back and wonder, maybe. To wallow in regret, never. I'm completely powerless in changing my past.

But I am empowered to decide my future.

It's been a tough healing process dad...

But as compared to the pain you went through on earth, I daresay you're happier now. =)

I was named as the Arts & Social Science faculty's top student for last semester, the only 4.0 student to exist in my fac apparently.

Hope you're proud of that!

With plenty of love,
Your precious daughter

Hey hey

Harlo bloggy! =)

I've not blogged in a long long while... There were a couple of attempts to blog before this but I usually ended up saving them as drafts because.. Don't know why really, but haha the last draft was because I felt it was too poorly written to make it public. =P Let's hope this one ends up published, eh? =D

So... What has happened during my hiatus from this blog?

Hmm.. Plenty, I've been so busy...! I lack plenty of sleep and usually catch up during the weekends. During my schooling days I ran on so little sleep, I can't seem to do that these days, I suspect it's largely due to the fact that I actually use my brain during lectures and tutorials now, as compared to school days in which stoning was an everyday affair. Not to mention the fact that studies was so much easier then. Oh, and the fact that every small freaking thing is counted towards my final grade/CGPA! Arrgh. Back in those days I only had to really study during my final few months of a public exam... PMR, SPM... STPM not counted, that was God given. It takes more effort to do well here now... I'm struggling to be consistent in my studies now, if I push everything till the very last minute I've not much hope of doing well.. That only works as far as your first sem during your first year. =(

Will have to be an emcee for my Asia Tenggara dinner soon, people who speak decent English here are such a tiny minority, my Asia Tenggara people practically begged me to be the English speaking emcee because there is no one else who speaks English in that course of mine!

I have Malay speaking days now. Hahaha! I've never spoken so so much Malay in my whole life, until I stepped into no, not UM, but my Asia Tenggara course. My PJ Malay friends were English speaking and most basically sucked in Malay. Most UM people on the other hand find it amazing that I speak English all the time. But my Malay is ok la, I understand them and they understand me, except for the few Kelantanese who sometimes speak with their super strong accent. By the end of my 3.5 years here I'm guessing my Malay will have shot sky high!

I'm trying to find back my 'mojo' and zest for doing things, now most things are done half-heartedly... Hmmm... It'll come back, I hope. Passion's a mighty strong motivator in doing things.

I've still got mixed feelings about my varsity badminton team... The heart says go sometimes, the head tells me to prioritize. Zzz. I'll listen to my head this time I think..

My relationship's doing well, very well. =) Been learning a lot from it, mainly how to adapt and think of my other half before I bulldoze my way into things! =P I now understand all the poems on love that I learn about, how sweet or bitter love can make one. Haha, before this I could never 'connect' with these poems, because I never truly experienced love between man and woman.

I feel this post is a rather 'monotonous' post... So I better post it before I decide it looks better in the draft section. =P hahaha, looks like I gotta find my 'mojo' for blogging too!

God bless,
Jo

Phewww

Finally have some time to catch a breather. I had a busier day today as compared to normal uni days!

Got up 12.45pm, practiced guitar cause I had class at 2pm, and not been too consistent in practice lately, so practiced lor. Then went off for youth 3-5.. stayed on in church for worship practice.. till... 8pm. Got back home, showered, and here I am, blogging.

No time to eat today! :-( And my fridge is quite, quite empty! Nevermind, better lose weight first before CNY/feasting begins... ;-)

Anyway, that's all for now, I'm on my only holiday during this semester, after this it's 10 weeks straight of everything. *Takes a deep deep DEEEP breath*

Gonna rest now!

God bless,
Jo

Playing with HTML

Today played around a lot with blog templates.. and the HTML format cause I helped my other half with his design... I more than just changed the design, eh dear. =P! Looking at my blog, I remember designing it soooo many years ago, at that time I played around with so much HTML I could adjust so so many things. Now I barely know anything :( And lazy to start again unless the need arises.

haha, but looking at my blog design, it's relatively 'holy', eh??? I think I added those verses in form 2.. the height of my dabbling with some online churchy stuff that made me hmm ok let's not be blasphemous.

Anyway, I won't bother to change the design, you just don't disturb history. I started blogging when I was in my first year of teenhood, and I'm done with teenhood now! That'll be a good... 7 years?? SEVEN years??? Wow!

Ok, just a short one, I'm off, too much computer today, eyes funny liao. Muh other half reached Kuantan safely! =)

God bless,
Jo

Elloz =)

Ok, I've been a really bad bad blogger. Bad bad Joanne! :(

haha, I've got so so many half-written posts in my drafts, that's why. I suddenly get uninspired so I just end up saving my posts.. half-meaning to complete them later. =P

I just turned 20 on the 12th of Jan! =)

At 12+ midnight on the 12th, Joash came by to see me.. haha, his plan to set off fireworks with his friends in front of my house at 12 midnight failed! Poor him.. but it was good enough to see him! =)

Next day, started out on a rather dreary note.. classes... but after an English class conducted by the most sarcastic instructor I've ever had thus far, my coursemates surprised me! With 5 candles on 5 colourful cupcakes and a chocolate rose and pudding and coconut chocolates! You guys and gals are so so sweet, I really wasn't expecting anything. :-) I mean, we've known each other only a few months.. and you guys actually did that! Was so so touched =)

After class, went home, went out with mum and brother for food...

Night time, the hubby took me out to dinner.. wow we really ate! He claims I didn't eat much but I ate A LOT. And he served me the whole night.. haha, I'm becoming spoilt and un-independent laaah with him around! And he kept apologising for the lack of a cake... -_- (As if I was even expecting one!)

After dinner, on the way home........

To cut the long story short, my sweet hubby actually got my dear friends to surprise me at home with a cake! Hahaha, was so so so shocked! People rarely manage to surprise me. But after what my coursemates did, and to suddenly walk into MY OWN HOME with friends singing the birthday song.. I was completely, absolutely dumbfounded. Never been caught so so so offguard by anything before! But it was a pleasant night =)

After everyone went off.. the couple took a walk in the park.. and.. he did the sweetest thing ever. I think I had so many surprises that by the time he gave me the biggest surprise I was struck speechless, and really couldn't think of anything to say. Haha. (No, I'm not divulging what he did.. some sweet events and memories aren't meant to be posted for the whole world to read.) But really, I was just completely taken aback by the day's events, I couldn't speak. Really, really couldn't speak. (And I've never been struck dumb like that before either!) Everytime I look at the ring on my finger with our names engraved inside, I still marvel at that sweet, sweet, night... =) =) =)

Anyway, we changed our relationship status on Facebook, and surprisingly I've not been bombarded with comments. haha! I think cause most are too busy replying to my comments on their birthday wishes. :-) And I'm quite, quite happy to keep it that way!

So anyway, yeah just a post to say that we're 'officially' a couple! ;-) It's been an amazing journey thus far, I've changed my skeptical view on relationships and I now believe that some relationships can actually work out. :-) Good thing I've got such a patient boyfriend who will never push me beyond my comfort zone!

And if you're hoping to read my blog for any fights between us, you're not getting any. Hahaha, I know some people would love to read such details but really, such details aren't meant to be shared with the world. Suffice to say, we've been good and steady so far, and we both knew the question was ripe and ready to be asked. =P haha, I'll really try to avoid fights but hmm I'm a wee bit stubborn at times! Don't woggly dear, I'll try not to make you angry. *sweet smile* LOL!

Ok ok, I know this post has been sooo un-Joanne with some lovey-dovey words here and there, but hey, being in a relationship has changed me in some aspects. Am trying to be a better girlfriend, haha eh not easy sometimes k when you're so used to living independently.. especially for someone who's walked home alone and stayed home alone since standard 1! That's practically 12 years of surviving on my own, worrying about my needs alone. Now I think of my other half before I take any action.. it's really different in that sense, but less chance of ending up raped/kidnapped/killed I guess. Haha!

Ok, signing off, have a blessed day!
Jo

Have a blessed new year! =)

Was intending to post yesterday, the last day of 2010. But.. forgot about it. Or rather was too lazy to post about it.

Anyway, 2010 has been a year of life-changes. If you follow my blog that's what it would have appeared to be, anyway.

1. I did superbly well for STPM.
2. I lost the man of my life.
3. I'm actually a varsity student. WOW.
4. I got another man of my life.. in a different sense. ;-)
5. I got the brother home! Whee that's fun =D
6. My faith has increased so abundantly in God, despite my misgivings and doubts about so many issues.. ultimately I go back to the basis of it all.

I've been broken over and over again in 2008, 2009 and 2010, it reached a climax in which I was merely numb to the world. Numb to everything around me. Appearing hard-hearted to close friends. Pretending to care when in fact, I was merely putting on a front because the inside of me was so so hardened I couldn't care less for the hurts of others. I was tired of being faithful, I was sick of being broken, I was just plain exhausted with life. And yet I trudged on, because somewhere deep inside me I knew to give up on life would have been ultimately selfish to my loved ones, to people who still depended on me. Just reread my last posts of 2008 and 2009, and looking back, I have no idea how I survived those tumultuous days. Numbing myself to everything around me.. a survival trait I suppose. At least I didn't go mad. Or maybe I did... hmmm..

But through it all, I kept running back to God, when man failed me over and over again. And in His own silent, gentle way, He comforted me. :-)

So I sincerely hope that 2011 will be a better year. If the final few months of 2010 was an indication of anything, 2011 looks to be quite, quite optimistic. I won't deny that challenges are bound to arise, but let's hope that they are manageable, ok? With so many changes in life I'm sure problems will crop up. But for now, life's pretty much ok...

Have a blessed new year! :-)