Have a blessed new year! =)

Was intending to post yesterday, the last day of 2010. But.. forgot about it. Or rather was too lazy to post about it.

Anyway, 2010 has been a year of life-changes. If you follow my blog that's what it would have appeared to be, anyway.

1. I did superbly well for STPM.
2. I lost the man of my life.
3. I'm actually a varsity student. WOW.
4. I got another man of my life.. in a different sense. ;-)
5. I got the brother home! Whee that's fun =D
6. My faith has increased so abundantly in God, despite my misgivings and doubts about so many issues.. ultimately I go back to the basis of it all.

I've been broken over and over again in 2008, 2009 and 2010, it reached a climax in which I was merely numb to the world. Numb to everything around me. Appearing hard-hearted to close friends. Pretending to care when in fact, I was merely putting on a front because the inside of me was so so hardened I couldn't care less for the hurts of others. I was tired of being faithful, I was sick of being broken, I was just plain exhausted with life. And yet I trudged on, because somewhere deep inside me I knew to give up on life would have been ultimately selfish to my loved ones, to people who still depended on me. Just reread my last posts of 2008 and 2009, and looking back, I have no idea how I survived those tumultuous days. Numbing myself to everything around me.. a survival trait I suppose. At least I didn't go mad. Or maybe I did... hmmm..

But through it all, I kept running back to God, when man failed me over and over again. And in His own silent, gentle way, He comforted me. :-)

So I sincerely hope that 2011 will be a better year. If the final few months of 2010 was an indication of anything, 2011 looks to be quite, quite optimistic. I won't deny that challenges are bound to arise, but let's hope that they are manageable, ok? With so many changes in life I'm sure problems will crop up. But for now, life's pretty much ok...

Have a blessed new year! :-)