Of Blacks, Internship and Christianity

Haha. Did some pretty fascinating readings on why blacks wanna marry whites, by Frantz Fanon.

It still happens, me thinks. I know sooo many darker-skinned friends who long for fairer-skinned partners. It was just common knowledge, before. Now, I understand the theory behind it. Haha! Doesn't that make life more fascinating?

I've gotten into a training programme for internship with AMG Media, which means I'll have to return to Malaysia 3 more Saturdays this year. Not that I mind, very much. =P My scholarship is extremely generous and the more trips I go back, the less I shop end of this year, I guess. Haha. Currently saving my money to shop end of this year! Although Joash claims it's the same thing, whether I spend now or spend later. Hmm. I beg to differ.

And ah, of Christianity. It's a puzzling thing, really. As Joash says, most people are just willing to let their cars drive without wondering how the car actually functions. But I, I wanna know how it functions. I've taken a step back from the "Christian world" that I know just to analyse what I've believed all these years. It comes with a price, really. I think many people view me as no longer such a "strong Christian", but at the same time I've found that this new attitude of mine has opened doors to others who are searching. When they come to me for advice, many times I tell them I don't have a "Godly" answer for them. Surprisingly, they are ok with it, I guess it's nice to know that there are other people searching too.

It's a rather slow and painful process, this searching. I was once told that once I find these answers, my faith will become powerful. Haha. No idea if such a day will ever come, but I'm pretty happy with where I am now, as compared to back to those days. Painful because I've received judgement from many Christians, judgements that I myself use to throw upon others back in those days. A taste of my own medicine, perhaps?

CP's coming tomorrow! :-) And Joash is coming during Haji! And I'm going back this weekend for the internship thing (they'll be selecting 8 interns out of 20 people at the end of 6 sessions. I don't know why I'm taking such a risk, but I think the training will be good :))

Cleaned my room for CP.. and also because I clean it once a week. Just a quick 10 mins and everything is back in order! I guess cleaning up Joash's HUGE workshop has put me in good stead for my tiny tiny room here. I would spend days cleaning his place and it would still be in a complete mess! Ok ok, fair enough, it's a workshop. Haha. =P

Yesterday I was mulling over the best way to go home in time for my training this Saturday (I only found out I was selected yesterday)... being so last min, the bus tickets for Friday evening was sold out, unless I took some 10pm one which would mean Joash would have to fetch me at 3/4am!, I had some rehearsals on Friday afternoon so I couldn't leave earlier, the plane tickets touched 100 SGD by night time.

Seriously considered taking a bus into JB and catching a flight from there... till I told my dear BF that awesome money-saving plan. "Just buy the direct flight from Singapore. I'll pay for it. Go here go there for what??"

:-D

Hahaha. And this is one of the reasons why I'm so in love with him. =P Time and again, I'm so glad we live on each other's money and not our parents. Haha. No way he can say that if his parents are still supporting him, and I wouldn't be able to shower him with my humble little gifts if I were still living off my mum.

Ok, on a side note the price dropped to 66 SGD today, I'm glad I waited one day. Haha. :-) Still very expensive, considering the fact that there are bus tickets as low as 15 SGD to return to KL. But better than 100 SGD!

And no, I didn't ask him to pay for it. =P It's the thought that counts!

We've been seeing each other for 2 years + now! :-) Time to get marrieeed... everyone asks how my LDR is going. It's going fine... apart from the fact that we miss each other so much it isn't really LDR at the rate we keep seeing each other. LOL. Skype sessions at night are fun though! Think I'll miss that when I'm back in PJ.. the novelty isn't there if I'm skyping him from PJ.

Will be going to Bangkok with family end of this year... hehe. Joash can't go, busy... Perhaps Christmas in Kuantan though, if I can convince him. ;-) There's something about Kuantan that I really enjoy... maybe cause I spent my first few years in Kuantan (although I barely remember it apart from certain memories)... just enjoy the thought of Kuantan.

Ok, I'll try to increase pictures in my blog. Zzz. Haha. Don't like photography. But I think I should, it's more fun.

Joash's aunty ain't doing so well, docs say anytime now.. :( Keep her, and her whole family in prayer.

God bless,
Jo