3.39am... the entire house is sleeping save for 2 kaki footballers who drove off to the nearby mamak for Euro 2012. (I'm SO glad Joash isn't the kind of man who will make me a football widow! =P)
Anyway, as of the 20th of June, 1.31pm I finished my 2nd year as an undergrad student... such an amazing feat! Eh?? Won't you agree?
Haha.
If I thought I had had a tough semester, the 2 weeks of exams I endured was complete absolute purgatory (except that I felt I was suffering for the sins of others, not mine). Not so much the papers, although yes, they were tougher papers than usual. But hey, it's 2nd sem of the 2nd year, I wasn't expecting easier papers or else I would have absolutely zero respect for my degree! But it was the utter chaotic mess that my heart and brains were struggling with that I even had a relapse of my just-recovered flu, a very very rare occurrence and a sign of extreme stress.
I'm not sure if those 2 weeks were as tough/tougher than STPM exam days with dad dying or the recent exams, but the fact that it's even comparable speaks volumes. Nevertheless, I got through it, with Joash by my side of course. Some problems, we just CAN'T face alone. I would probably have sunk into the abyss of depression if Joash hadn't been there with me. Thanks dear! :-)
Suffice to say, a lot has happened recently, beginning with the 4th of June till now that my perspectives and values I have always upheld has undergone a massive earthquake that I'm scrambling to form a whole new me again.
The most important thing that I've learnt is to completely let go and trust God, because I'm powerless as a mere sinful mortal.
God bless,
Jo
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