As I Look Back...

Daughter puts up brave front in face of grief

Think I blogged about it back then.. anyway I shall always remember this funeral as the most sorrow-stricken funeral(s) I have ever attended. I never knew them personally, but my parents were/are family friends with the older Wees.. The shock that was (still) written all over the faces of the funeral(s) attendees shall forever be ingrained in my mind. I could feel the pain arching through my heart as I stood there, looking at the coffins lined up side by side. Pain for their family, for their friends. Back then I'd just lost my dad some months back, so this was double-whammy. I'd lost my dad in completely different circumstances, painful but expected and forewarned circumstances.

I remember the wise words that an uncle, another family friend, spoke to me on that day. We were just having light refreshments and sitting around. I was sitting amongst a whole group of older Malaccan church members, all former churchmates who grew up with my parents. As they were talking about life and death (lately they were only meeting up during funerals... their circle was getting smaller), this uncle turned to be and told me that they had to pass on the torch to my generation already. He said that their best years were gone, and they had to pass on the torch. Simple English was used, nothing too profound. And yet the words stuck to me up to today.

How often have we given God our leftover years instead of our best years? Our leftovers after we had accomplished our own selfish desires, nothing that could be called SACRIFICE. Cause sacrifice for God is painful, and definitely NOT leftovers.

Just thinking over the sermon from last Sunday.

Tired. Had a full day today. Woke up at 7am, had class starting at 8am, reached home 2pm, gave tuition till 5.15pm, had guitar class 5.30pm-6.30pm, had a badminton friendly match in UM again at 7pm, reached home 10.30pm, went for dinner, and here I am, off to bed. Haha timed everything to be 15-30 mins apart today so really had to work like clockwork. Student having exam this week so she was desperate for extra classes. Zzz nitez!

God bless,
Jo