With my messed-up bio clock, I slept at 7am, woke up at 1.30pm. Today. Well, I did set my alarm at 9.45am to go for LYPG but.. ended up zzzing. :-(
I don't know, the urge to study study study is gone. I used to have it when I was younger, the deep desire to do well in studies.
But somewhere along the way, in 2008/2009, the desire to excel in studies just.. well, died off. Which is bad, 'cause without motivation I just won't study. Haha. I won't think twice about skipping a test now, I don't worry like my classmates do when they hear there's gonna be a monthly test.. and I study only when I feel like it.
Mind you, I still thirst for knowledge, and enjoy learning new, interesting things. But somehow the drive to get 100%s is GONE. I find myself preferring to read up on stuff that have no bearing whatsoever in exams, but 'tis knowledge, at the same time.
So many things to think over. Hmm. Is growing up always like this, constantly pondering over so many various issues?
I know my future's in your hands, Lord.
2 comments:
To tell d truth, I'm in exactly d same situation as yours & the exact factor/cause is unknown. =( but my condition is worse as the motivation & mood to study for exam had long evaporated since '07-now. I guess we can only pray & commit everything into His hands. There's always hope for tomorrow...
Yeah, I think it's to do with.. age, growing up.. perhaps? Maybe because you've left home and no longer feel pressured? I dunno..
Yeah, commit it into His hands :-)
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