Yesterday night I fell into bed at 9.45pm. Was too exhausted to do anything else, I figured trying to study would just be a fruitless attempt, going online was just a waste of time. At that point lah. So I slept till 8am this morning. 10 hours of sleep may not be enough considering I sleep 5-6 hours per night on schooldays.. But I survived reasonably well on it lah, didn't feel like dying when I woke up.
I don't know about other school students, but every morning when I'm forced to wake up at 5.45am for school I just feel like dying. Seriously. I mean, I want to continue sleeping for another 6 solid hours or so, but I'm forced to move my wretched body for the sake of school.
Will this cycle ever get broken? If so, when? When I leave school? Or when I leave college(if I do)? When I retire??
Hahaha but by around 6.30am I'm usually ready to take on whatever the day has in store for me.. including trying to stay awake for BM lessons(most boring ones in my whole schooling life-not the subject, but the teacher).
The good thing is I've got some badminton during the week to relax.. release stress. Hahaha. I play best during exams, I figure it's because I need to release all the tension within me in the game. At least know I look forward to training.. time to socialise with friends and just enjoy. Last time training was a serious thing, couldn't fool around with all my chicken shots.. otherwise will get it from my coach. hahaha. Yes sure, training competitively has its rewards... winning tournaments was fun... but oooh the pressure. It's almost as if badminton became a burden, and not something fun anymore. I had a wonderful time basking in my coaches' praises after upsetting some players and all but when I didn't perform well.. Actually, in all the tournaments I joined, only didn't win anything in Selangor Close.. my point is, while I enjoyed winning, I wanted to enjoy training too. The thought of all the killer physical and agilities(we spent 1 hour doing it each session.. that's 3 times a week!)... yes yes I can attribute my stamina to all that I suppose but it was still.. hahaha. Anyhow, I don't regret that 1 year of competitive training.. after I stopped(when my coaches shifted to Kepong, I just used that as an excuse to stop), my coach tried to contact me continuously 3-4 weeks.. but at that time I was busy and 'busy' each time he called.. I finally got the guts to call him back one day... hahaha well he tried to convince me to go back.. got transport for me.. said something about 'talent wasted' etc etc etc. The conversation ended with me saying I'll contact the other coach if I needed transport...
Let's just say I never called the other coach. I know I won't go back to that training lah, I now spend my time in school involving myself in CF.. the occasional sports practice(I've been 2 times so far this year =P).. and studies. SPM. Don't play play. Hahaha. As I see it, in badminton(sports in general) there can only be 1 winner.. 1 champ.. but in the academic world there can be 1000 or more champs and each will be recognised in their own different way. Hehe.
Anyway today's training was okay.. well wasn't really training lah, just ran a bit in the beginning. Others blamed me for it wor.. I messaged my coach online about something lah. The 'older ones' had to run 2 rounds around 4 courts, 4 sets in 35 seconds(girls, 30 secs for guys.. not that they made it anyway). Hahaha. But I think my coach planned it anyway.. but to me not a big deal lor, I just ran fast enough, not pushing myself to run faster to keep just within the time frame... about 30 or 31 seconds I think. Mana tahu the other girls had to kill themselves to run within the time frame.. actually they didn't need to run so fast.. I just paced myself to keep within the time frame(my coach would shout out the timing).. but the girls had to run so fast.. for what? Still reach within the time frame with me hardly panting and they dying. After that all 3 girls complained about butt pain! HAHAHAHAHA! Guys pun nearly died.. some lah. Wanted to vomit etc. So much for my coach trying to torture me.. the others around me died lah.
Then we played doubles.. my partner and I are unofficially the champs.. =P We beat all 5 pairs easily.. only 1 pair gave a bit of resistance.. actually we just had a bit of a slow start, then we were trailing 16-20... then I said, "CANNOT! Must win all today!" Hahaha cause they just lost to a pair that we beat easily. But at 20 you know lah.. pressure edi.. 1 mistake and we lose.. hahaha thank goodness they made the mistakes.. caught up 20-20.. then 20-21.. 21-21.. 22-21...22-22.. then we led 23-22.. then yay they smashed out! Hahaha.
Actually.. I'm curious to know if I'm actually improving still as compared to my previous training. I thought I may have actually dropped.. after all, in my previous training if I missed 2 sessions and went back in 1 week it was a pretty serious thing.. like taking a break for too long. But then thinking over it.. training once a week may just mean I improve slower.. or at least maintain... I don't know. I still have a lot of shots I want to improve though... after SPM I'm going on a training spree. hehehe. Not sure whether I should go to OBT or my EBA coach though. Of course I'll maintain Megah's.. that's a bit too fun to stop.. but on weekdays I'll train elsewhere.. there's this Andrew that keeps trying to 'lure' me into his training.. but I don't know about him.. perhaps I'll just try his out for a while.
There's one problem though.. by improving I cannot play with people I used to play with before without finding it boring.. now either play with my training mates or some good old uncles to get some fun and competition... I don't mind losing as long as there was fun+some fight.
Oki crapped a lot already, now I'm off to do a whole pile of unfinished homework. I've really changed a lot lately.. a pile of unfinished homework doesn't worry me at all.. just depresses me a bit. hahaha.
God bless
Joanne Lim
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