:-) Am in UM now blogging.. sometimes I still find it unbelievable that I made it this far.. to uni! I can still remember my first day of standard 1... form 1...
Of course, there are many things I still find unbelievable. Like no longer having an earthly dad.. I've still got so many things I would have loved to learn from him.. I recently found a classical guitar book of his that's ancient! I never knew he played the classical guitar.. I knew he played the guitar lah, but not classical-playing.. But we'll never find all the answers to life, will we?
Having walked home since standard 1 till form 5, I look back and marvel at the fact that I was never kidnapped nor raped.. worst thing that happened was seeing a flasher, and that taught me to vary my going-home routes. I'm amazed at the leniency of my parents who never questioned nor stopped me from coming home at odd times throughout my schooling years, especially since I could not be contacted by handphone. For not scolding when I sometimes left school a bit earlier than I should have.. for not checking on the kind of friends I hung out with.. for allowing me to play so much badminton and other sports, for never scolding me when I came home with less than satisfactory marks..
Really, if I look back at my life I don't know how I'll ever give my kids(if I ever have any =P) that much leeway. Hmm...
God has been good in everything I've been through, and I see His blessings around me all the time. :-)
kk, time for class. Story time finish! Haha. Was bored. =D
God bless,
Jo
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Alive and Kicking ;-)
After a wonderful weekend of sleeping and sleeping and sleeping, I'm nearly completely well. Nearly.. hey, it's a dramatic improvement from my half-dead-dog status on Friday anyway. :-)
Yesterday my piano teacher asked me about exams.. whether I should take it.. then he asked me what grade I wanted to take. -_- I was thinking, "hey, you're the teacher!" But I could understand his confusion.. he said he's never really sure what grade I'm at. I suppose cause some lessons I can barely play lower level pieces well, and sometimes I can sight-read higher levels easily. Hmmm... I'm confused too.
Anyway, I thought life would be pretty hectic, but turns out its not. Because no one has called me up for inter-college badminton, and the debate competition committee has gone completely silent on me (or maybe it was the other way around =P). So I'm only busy with CF camp stuff, and that is pretty light stuff.. and I'm told inter-college squash is coming up.. but no details yet.
So.. life's been pretty relaxing.
Ok, maybe I'm supposed to start on my major assignments.. like the 15 page one due end of sem..
Hmmm. Yeah. I think that's it. =D
Ok, starting on another assignment. -_-
As the semester drags on, I find myself handing in crappier and crappier assignments.. can't be bothered to make each one as perfect as I'd like them to be..
Oh, for the love of exams...!
:( Just started on a long ago assignment, and I find myself spewing out explicits (for my own ears alone) as I realise that I'm missing important documents that I used to have when we were first given the assignment. *sigh* How vulgar can you get, Jo... -__-
Anyway, zzz. Assignment time. I take back my long ago words. Exam is no longer a 4 letter word. Well, technically it is, but it isn't any longer in that sense..
Take care!
Jo
Yesterday my piano teacher asked me about exams.. whether I should take it.. then he asked me what grade I wanted to take. -_- I was thinking, "hey, you're the teacher!" But I could understand his confusion.. he said he's never really sure what grade I'm at. I suppose cause some lessons I can barely play lower level pieces well, and sometimes I can sight-read higher levels easily. Hmmm... I'm confused too.
Anyway, I thought life would be pretty hectic, but turns out its not. Because no one has called me up for inter-college badminton, and the debate competition committee has gone completely silent on me (or maybe it was the other way around =P). So I'm only busy with CF camp stuff, and that is pretty light stuff.. and I'm told inter-college squash is coming up.. but no details yet.
So.. life's been pretty relaxing.
Ok, maybe I'm supposed to start on my major assignments.. like the 15 page one due end of sem..
Hmmm. Yeah. I think that's it. =D
Ok, starting on another assignment. -_-
As the semester drags on, I find myself handing in crappier and crappier assignments.. can't be bothered to make each one as perfect as I'd like them to be..
Oh, for the love of exams...!
:( Just started on a long ago assignment, and I find myself spewing out explicits (for my own ears alone) as I realise that I'm missing important documents that I used to have when we were first given the assignment. *sigh* How vulgar can you get, Jo... -__-
Anyway, zzz. Assignment time. I take back my long ago words. Exam is no longer a 4 letter word. Well, technically it is, but it isn't any longer in that sense..
Take care!
Jo
Saturday, September 25, 2010
*cough cough*
I had the worst day ever yesterday! Lol. Because I woke up with a fever, slight flu and slight cough. But I still had to attend lecture because I had to sign some group project stuff and hand up an assignment.. Of course I could have left lecture early but there were some group presentations going on.. I wanted to see how they did it. Because I may be forced to present it next week -_- in front of 100 people. Zzz. The fluent Malay-speaking people in my group claim that their "suara bergetar-getar" when they speak in public.. So that just leaves me.. a person whose translation mechanism tends to break down when the brain is tired.. or some less-fluent speakers. Hmm. Hope I don't have to do it lah.. don't feel up to it.
Anyway, sick sick sick yesterday, came home 1+.. driving with a painful head is no easy task man! Thank God I reached home safely :-) And then slept my whole day away. Haha. So fruitless lah. Watch tv, sleep, wake up, reply sms ;-), sleep, wake up, watch tv, sleep, wake up.. eat... sleep..
Woke up this morning, felt better.. went for Chinese class.. then piano class.. guess what? I think my slight fever 'broke' during piano class.. I think that was it la, cause class was air-con but I perspired profusely throughout! Lol. Didn't feel like I had fever, but.. after that my eye-balls weren't painful anymore. =D
Having felt so much better, I actually made it to youth ON TIME. :-) Awesome, enlightening session.
Then it was back home.. right into bed. =P Till dinner time. Haha!
And ta dangg! I'm here blogging. :-) Off to do some work now.
God bless,
Jo
Anyway, sick sick sick yesterday, came home 1+.. driving with a painful head is no easy task man! Thank God I reached home safely :-) And then slept my whole day away. Haha. So fruitless lah. Watch tv, sleep, wake up, reply sms ;-), sleep, wake up, watch tv, sleep, wake up.. eat... sleep..
Woke up this morning, felt better.. went for Chinese class.. then piano class.. guess what? I think my slight fever 'broke' during piano class.. I think that was it la, cause class was air-con but I perspired profusely throughout! Lol. Didn't feel like I had fever, but.. after that my eye-balls weren't painful anymore. =D
Having felt so much better, I actually made it to youth ON TIME. :-) Awesome, enlightening session.
Then it was back home.. right into bed. =P Till dinner time. Haha!
And ta dangg! I'm here blogging. :-) Off to do some work now.
God bless,
Jo
Saturday, September 18, 2010
*Wedding Bells*
Wedding!!! =D
Went for Adrian and Sara's wedding today =) Hehe, so much joy in the reunion. The groom was smiling like I've never seen him smile before. Just smiling and smiling and smiling! Enraptured by love.. ;-)
Ushered at lunch.. in high-heels -_- Sooo painful after a while. Haha. But all the pain went away when our job was done and we could sit down the enjoy the wonderful food. With good company, of course! Hehe.
All in all, a fantastic wedding. Not so much because of all the events that were done, but because everyone was just so happy with this reunion. It wasn't too elaborate a wedding, with the shortest aisle I've ever seen for the bride to walk down.. 10 feet? Haha! Simple and awesome :)The atmosphere was the most important. Both sides were at peace with the reunion and all friends were sharing their joy. :) (Some PPBCians started acting as if it was their own wedding, at the rate they had fun!) I enjoyed the part where all the young couples in the church whether married or unmarried performed on stage as couples (for some reason they are all musical??). It seemed to be speaking a blessing onto their relationship, especially for the yet-to-be-married couples. (However most couples denied that it's their turn next.. hmmm)
Today's wedding just reminded me about how precious the sanctity of marriage is, especially in this world. So many people of my generation and slightly older have deliberately abandoned the idea of marriage in place of cohabitation. No strings attached, but you get the best out of your relationship. I have so many friends who have already decided that the idea of marriage is not for them, too constraining. Sure I may be an old fuddy-duddy.. but... ;-)
'Someone' said I blog long looong posts... =P Hahaha, sorry la, that's my style. My blog is my place to rant and tell stories when I feel like it.. although I don't really name names and give exact details of stuff... I look back at my previous posts and sometimes I've no idea what all that emo stuff was about!
Aye, I had a good day today. Good wedding, good dinner, good time. ;-)
God bless,
Jo
Went for Adrian and Sara's wedding today =) Hehe, so much joy in the reunion. The groom was smiling like I've never seen him smile before. Just smiling and smiling and smiling! Enraptured by love.. ;-)
Ushered at lunch.. in high-heels -_- Sooo painful after a while. Haha. But all the pain went away when our job was done and we could sit down the enjoy the wonderful food. With good company, of course! Hehe.
All in all, a fantastic wedding. Not so much because of all the events that were done, but because everyone was just so happy with this reunion. It wasn't too elaborate a wedding, with the shortest aisle I've ever seen for the bride to walk down.. 10 feet? Haha! Simple and awesome :)The atmosphere was the most important. Both sides were at peace with the reunion and all friends were sharing their joy. :) (Some PPBCians started acting as if it was their own wedding, at the rate they had fun!) I enjoyed the part where all the young couples in the church whether married or unmarried performed on stage as couples (for some reason they are all musical??). It seemed to be speaking a blessing onto their relationship, especially for the yet-to-be-married couples. (However most couples denied that it's their turn next.. hmmm)
Today's wedding just reminded me about how precious the sanctity of marriage is, especially in this world. So many people of my generation and slightly older have deliberately abandoned the idea of marriage in place of cohabitation. No strings attached, but you get the best out of your relationship. I have so many friends who have already decided that the idea of marriage is not for them, too constraining. Sure I may be an old fuddy-duddy.. but... ;-)
'Someone' said I blog long looong posts... =P Hahaha, sorry la, that's my style. My blog is my place to rant and tell stories when I feel like it.. although I don't really name names and give exact details of stuff... I look back at my previous posts and sometimes I've no idea what all that emo stuff was about!
Aye, I had a good day today. Good wedding, good dinner, good time. ;-)
God bless,
Jo
Friday, September 17, 2010
PEEEJAY :)
Am back in familiar territory! =D
(Though I daresay I didn't get lost in Kluang at all! but I get lost in PJ/KL every other day. :-( )
Kluang is a quaint little town, honestly. :) It just felt more.. 'united' than here.. particularly because the term 'daerah Kluang' is up everywhere, and nearly everything there is named after Kluang.
FWP was.. erm.. well honestly I fell sick right after I reached Kluang.. parked car, and started sneezing. By night my whole brain felt fuzzy and my nose was blocked. So.. it went pretty ok.. considering the circumstances. :) I'm sorry to say I spent plenty of time trying to recover because I had to drive back today, with 3 other precious cargo/daughters! It was a desperate attempt to recover because I knew I needed to drive these people back. After loads of prayer, water, and as much sleep as I could get, I woke up feeling surprisingly better today! :-)
I reached home in a surprisingly not-so-long time =D The good ol' perdana is awesome.. :) Thanks dad! Reached home in about 3 hours.. considering we got a bit lost in Puchong (I felt adventurous and turned off at Puchong instead of my usual place farther up..), it was a pretty decent timing. Hehe.
I still don't know WHAT possessed me to suggest I would drive to Kluang! I still remember myself just blurting out that I'll drive there. -_- I didn't even bother checking the place out properly, just printed out the map of Kluang that I was emailed. All I knew was I was to get on the North-South highway, head to Johor Bahru. Haha. After that I drove till I realised I had no idea which exit to turn off! After that I realised I had no idea how to find the place. Haha. As if I was riding a bicycle/on foot and can simply walk until I find the place. Neway, since I was headed to FWP.. naturally we didn't get lost =P Thanks to Him! Haha. (Though honestly, if the parents of those other 3 had known how completely clueless I was about reaching Kluang they would have been deathly worried. =D)
Still, it was a good journey. Good company, relatively good music.. so far no saman in my postbox.. :)
Neway..
So many things going on.. dreading these coming 6 weeks! :( Too cram too many things to do.. I feel like quitting something.. hmm... squash?
God is my strength :-) And of course next sem onwards I'll not be involved in so many activities. Haha. I want time to sit back, kick back, and relax! (Cause the badminton people in UM don't seem particularly friendly so I feel like returning to my good ol' long lost badminton groups. I wonder if they are still playing..?)
Am off.. assignment time... zzzzzz...
Have a great weekend! :-)
God bless,
Jo
(Though I daresay I didn't get lost in Kluang at all! but I get lost in PJ/KL every other day. :-( )
Kluang is a quaint little town, honestly. :) It just felt more.. 'united' than here.. particularly because the term 'daerah Kluang' is up everywhere, and nearly everything there is named after Kluang.
FWP was.. erm.. well honestly I fell sick right after I reached Kluang.. parked car, and started sneezing. By night my whole brain felt fuzzy and my nose was blocked. So.. it went pretty ok.. considering the circumstances. :) I'm sorry to say I spent plenty of time trying to recover because I had to drive back today, with 3 other precious cargo/daughters! It was a desperate attempt to recover because I knew I needed to drive these people back. After loads of prayer, water, and as much sleep as I could get, I woke up feeling surprisingly better today! :-)
I reached home in a surprisingly not-so-long time =D The good ol' perdana is awesome.. :) Thanks dad! Reached home in about 3 hours.. considering we got a bit lost in Puchong (I felt adventurous and turned off at Puchong instead of my usual place farther up..), it was a pretty decent timing. Hehe.
I still don't know WHAT possessed me to suggest I would drive to Kluang! I still remember myself just blurting out that I'll drive there. -_- I didn't even bother checking the place out properly, just printed out the map of Kluang that I was emailed. All I knew was I was to get on the North-South highway, head to Johor Bahru. Haha. After that I drove till I realised I had no idea which exit to turn off! After that I realised I had no idea how to find the place. Haha. As if I was riding a bicycle/on foot and can simply walk until I find the place. Neway, since I was headed to FWP.. naturally we didn't get lost =P Thanks to Him! Haha. (Though honestly, if the parents of those other 3 had known how completely clueless I was about reaching Kluang they would have been deathly worried. =D)
Still, it was a good journey. Good company, relatively good music.. so far no saman in my postbox.. :)
Neway..
So many things going on.. dreading these coming 6 weeks! :( Too cram too many things to do.. I feel like quitting something.. hmm... squash?
God is my strength :-) And of course next sem onwards I'll not be involved in so many activities. Haha. I want time to sit back, kick back, and relax! (Cause the badminton people in UM don't seem particularly friendly so I feel like returning to my good ol' long lost badminton groups. I wonder if they are still playing..?)
Am off.. assignment time... zzzzzz...
Have a great weekend! :-)
God bless,
Jo
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Kluang Kluang Kluang
Sounds onomatopoetic after a while.. Kluang kluang kluang kluaaaang..
Neway, headed there this afternoon till this Friday. Will be cut off from the civilised world till then.. ;-)
My hp gonna be contactable only to my mom =P Cause I'm her lifeline.. no one else has that excuse. Hahaha.
(Wai Yan's staring at me type sooo... entertain her a bit lah hor)
She's only contactable through me through my mom through HER mom through UM through UL.. aiyah you want to contact her just call her lah! Haha. Now she says sms can.. don't call.
Oki, am off to Jonker street and kicking Elaine out of bed (it's the other way around I think). :)
God bless!
Jo
Neway, headed there this afternoon till this Friday. Will be cut off from the civilised world till then.. ;-)
My hp gonna be contactable only to my mom =P Cause I'm her lifeline.. no one else has that excuse. Hahaha.
(Wai Yan's staring at me type sooo... entertain her a bit lah hor)
She's only contactable through me through my mom through HER mom through UM through UL.. aiyah you want to contact her just call her lah! Haha. Now she says sms can.. don't call.
Oki, am off to Jonker street and kicking Elaine out of bed (it's the other way around I think). :)
God bless!
Jo
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Do not ever...
Drink 2 big cups of chinese tea late at night. I felt sleepy but couldn't sleep until about 5.30am! And I promised to fetch 2 friends to church too, so I couldn't very well wake up late..! Because of that all my plans for today tergendala (what's a suitable english word for this??)..
Was supposed to attend yet another funeral today.. a guy whom I barely knew, his dad passed away. But since I do know him a bit I felt I should go.. but just couldn't wake up.. went home to sleep right after church and was a dead log 4+pm. Woke up with a growling stomach.
I'm supposed to go to climb Gasing hill at 5.30pm today.. but body just doesn't feel up to it, am afraid my heart stops beating halfway due to lack of sleep. =P (Well technically I caught up on my sleep, slept 3+ hours, but.. excuses. hehe.)
At least 4 people in church asked me how my trip back to Malacca was.. because I didn't show up for all the weekday events in church the whole of last week, maybe? And I also mentioned about wanting to go back to Malacca before.. haha. To set the record straight, I've not been back to Malacca, wanted to but this this and that that popped up.. so.. I've been in my beloved PJ all this while. :)
FWP is next week, will stop by Malacca for a day before heading down to Kluang though. :) I have no idea how I'll find my way to Kluang and around Kluang.. with 3 passengers who will be equally as lost as I am.. but we'll cover that journey with prayer! :)
After all the excessively rich and unhealthy food the past week, I've got to start cutting down.. starting today. And I've got to start exercising.. thought I'll get to play more badminton in UM, but sessions there have been few and far between.
Did I mention that I managed to get the JPA scholarship? Guess they forgot that I had so rudely turned them down without so much as a letter after SPM. Hehehe. Wanna buy... a new acoustic guitar with plug in! =P Actually wanted to buy a new phone too, but I'll have to compromise the quality/price of my guitar then.. so I'll prioritise my guitar over a phone that'll spoil soon enough anyway. My current phone was bought by my parents after SPM results.. they were high after their dearest daughter-who-played-badminton-non-stop-even-during-SPM managed to do so well. ;-) I'll keep it for now la.. giving some problems but only occasionally..
Anyway, this Raya hols is way too packed.. my next hols I'm gonna just relax.. go somewhere relaxing.. next hols no more assignments, we're given THREE freakin weeks to study -_- so.. hahaha. Who needs 3 weeks to study for so few papers in your first sem?? Will holiday a bit lor. =D I feel like going somewhere... islandy. Enough of shopping malls and shopping and mmm just plain man-made stuff. I need a break..! Reminiscing the awesome Pangkor trip I had with my coach and some locals + Australians for a badminton training camp.. I love beaches! =) Clean ones.. and rivers! Clean ones.. island trip, anyone? Yan yan.. if you still read my blog... let's go! =D
(Can't believe I'm already planning for my next holidays! This hol also not yet finish..)
Have a blessed day :-)
Jo
By the way, I have realised that a great deal of Manglish has lately crept into my blog posts. I'm not entirely sure why, but I suspect it could be due to the fact that I have to use proper Engrish in all my assignments and when speaking to lecturers, so this blog is a rant for the Manglish side. Makes sense, no? :-)
Was supposed to attend yet another funeral today.. a guy whom I barely knew, his dad passed away. But since I do know him a bit I felt I should go.. but just couldn't wake up.. went home to sleep right after church and was a dead log 4+pm. Woke up with a growling stomach.
I'm supposed to go to climb Gasing hill at 5.30pm today.. but body just doesn't feel up to it, am afraid my heart stops beating halfway due to lack of sleep. =P (Well technically I caught up on my sleep, slept 3+ hours, but.. excuses. hehe.)
At least 4 people in church asked me how my trip back to Malacca was.. because I didn't show up for all the weekday events in church the whole of last week, maybe? And I also mentioned about wanting to go back to Malacca before.. haha. To set the record straight, I've not been back to Malacca, wanted to but this this and that that popped up.. so.. I've been in my beloved PJ all this while. :)
FWP is next week, will stop by Malacca for a day before heading down to Kluang though. :) I have no idea how I'll find my way to Kluang and around Kluang.. with 3 passengers who will be equally as lost as I am.. but we'll cover that journey with prayer! :)
After all the excessively rich and unhealthy food the past week, I've got to start cutting down.. starting today. And I've got to start exercising.. thought I'll get to play more badminton in UM, but sessions there have been few and far between.
Did I mention that I managed to get the JPA scholarship? Guess they forgot that I had so rudely turned them down without so much as a letter after SPM. Hehehe. Wanna buy... a new acoustic guitar with plug in! =P Actually wanted to buy a new phone too, but I'll have to compromise the quality/price of my guitar then.. so I'll prioritise my guitar over a phone that'll spoil soon enough anyway. My current phone was bought by my parents after SPM results.. they were high after their dearest daughter-who-played-badminton-non-stop-even-during-SPM managed to do so well. ;-) I'll keep it for now la.. giving some problems but only occasionally..
Anyway, this Raya hols is way too packed.. my next hols I'm gonna just relax.. go somewhere relaxing.. next hols no more assignments, we're given THREE freakin weeks to study -_- so.. hahaha. Who needs 3 weeks to study for so few papers in your first sem?? Will holiday a bit lor. =D I feel like going somewhere... islandy. Enough of shopping malls and shopping and mmm just plain man-made stuff. I need a break..! Reminiscing the awesome Pangkor trip I had with my coach and some locals + Australians for a badminton training camp.. I love beaches! =) Clean ones.. and rivers! Clean ones.. island trip, anyone? Yan yan.. if you still read my blog... let's go! =D
(Can't believe I'm already planning for my next holidays! This hol also not yet finish..)
Have a blessed day :-)
Jo
By the way, I have realised that a great deal of Manglish has lately crept into my blog posts. I'm not entirely sure why, but I suspect it could be due to the fact that I have to use proper Engrish in all my assignments and when speaking to lecturers, so this blog is a rant for the Manglish side. Makes sense, no? :-)
Exactly 1 week more of holidays... -_-
Only done 1 assignment so far! :-(
Had an aweesooome time with old church friends today. At least, us young people did. The older ones had a therapeutic session discussing the wounds that were/still are being inflicted unto them. Hearing some things made that same old frustration in me well up again.. but what can we as men do? Oh well..
They came over for lunch at about 12+/1+, and talked and talked and talked till.. 11+pm! Gila? Originally planned to have a lunch.. then ended up dinner together too. Haha.
But really, it was good. Especially for my mom. :-) Kinda lonely for her these days I think.. me being so busy. *sigh*
Anyway, good fellowship, good food = good day! =)
My cousin just sent me this song.. I'll post the lyrics here:
Framing Hanley - You Stupid Girl
Feels like the walls are closing in on me
I'm suffocating, I can barely breathe
And you've got me right where you want me
This is the side of you I've never seen
You're not the girl that you used to be
And you've got me right where you want me
You always know, how to bring me down
Let's just face it now, I'm never changin'
You are my world, my everything
You stupid girl, you're gonna be the death of me
So let me go, just let me be
You stupid girl, I love the way you're killing me
(killing me)
You stupid girl
You're like an angel but with broken wings
A heart so cold can never show mercy
And you've got me right where you want me
You are my world, my everything
You stupid girl, you're gonna be the death of me
So let me go, just let me be
You stupid girl, I love the way you're killing me
(killing me)
You stupid girl (killing me)
You stupid girl
I know I'm a bastard, I'm not a coward
Why can't you see what you're doin' to me?
I'm falling faster, more every hour
Why can't you see what you're doin' to me?
Open your eyes, open your eyes
This is killing me
You are my world, my everything
You stupid girl, you're gonna be the death of me
So let me go, just let me be
You stupid girl, I love the way you're killing me
(killing me)
You stupid girl (killing me)
You stupid girl
Interesting song? He sent me another song that's just too vulgar for this innocent blog of mine.. Songs that are written these days... I could blog a whole blog about them.
But considering how uninspired and tired I feel right now, I'll not bother.
Oh Oh Oh! I had a ride on Joash's super motorbike today! Lol. It was exhilarating like a roller coaster ride in Genting.. because I knew if I had let go there were no safety harnesses to hold me in place. =P
God bless,
Jo
Only done 1 assignment so far! :-(
Had an aweesooome time with old church friends today. At least, us young people did. The older ones had a therapeutic session discussing the wounds that were/still are being inflicted unto them. Hearing some things made that same old frustration in me well up again.. but what can we as men do? Oh well..
They came over for lunch at about 12+/1+, and talked and talked and talked till.. 11+pm! Gila? Originally planned to have a lunch.. then ended up dinner together too. Haha.
But really, it was good. Especially for my mom. :-) Kinda lonely for her these days I think.. me being so busy. *sigh*
Anyway, good fellowship, good food = good day! =)
My cousin just sent me this song.. I'll post the lyrics here:
Framing Hanley - You Stupid Girl
Feels like the walls are closing in on me
I'm suffocating, I can barely breathe
And you've got me right where you want me
This is the side of you I've never seen
You're not the girl that you used to be
And you've got me right where you want me
You always know, how to bring me down
Let's just face it now, I'm never changin'
You are my world, my everything
You stupid girl, you're gonna be the death of me
So let me go, just let me be
You stupid girl, I love the way you're killing me
(killing me)
You stupid girl
You're like an angel but with broken wings
A heart so cold can never show mercy
And you've got me right where you want me
You are my world, my everything
You stupid girl, you're gonna be the death of me
So let me go, just let me be
You stupid girl, I love the way you're killing me
(killing me)
You stupid girl (killing me)
You stupid girl
I know I'm a bastard, I'm not a coward
Why can't you see what you're doin' to me?
I'm falling faster, more every hour
Why can't you see what you're doin' to me?
Open your eyes, open your eyes
This is killing me
You are my world, my everything
You stupid girl, you're gonna be the death of me
So let me go, just let me be
You stupid girl, I love the way you're killing me
(killing me)
You stupid girl (killing me)
You stupid girl
Interesting song? He sent me another song that's just too vulgar for this innocent blog of mine.. Songs that are written these days... I could blog a whole blog about them.
But considering how uninspired and tired I feel right now, I'll not bother.
Oh Oh Oh! I had a ride on Joash's super motorbike today! Lol. It was exhilarating like a roller coaster ride in Genting.. because I knew if I had let go there were no safety harnesses to hold me in place. =P
God bless,
Jo
Friday, September 10, 2010
Happy Raya! (Got such thing??)
Haha. :-) I spent most of today sleeping... slept at 4am, woke up 10am to go for a funeral (yeah.. another funeral... mom's friend's mother.. tis the season for death me thinks), came back home, slept till Ikea man kacau.. cause I bought a new bookshelf! For my many many books =D
If I'm a millionaire next time.. I'll have a whole huge room turned into a library! =)
Haha. Since I'm pretty sure I won't become a millionaire (I've no idea how I'll even earn a decent living) I'll stick to turning a small room into a library.. starting with my bedroom. :-) Recently gave away a lot of my small kid books, books that I grew up with.. mostly all bought from Pay Less books (one of the few places where you can get decent and cheap books).. but kept some of my favourite books. :-) These books I read and reread throughout the years.. in fact, I felt as if it was only yesterday that I had read some of them.. till I saw a label on one of the books.. Joanne Lim 1 K.. lol. Form 1... 7 years ago! I was but a fat and short kid back then.. Now slightly less-fat and maybe 1 or 2 cm taller. Hehe.
I keep turning around to admire the books even as I type this post.. Because I had given away about 1/4 of my books, some of the shelves are empty.. since they look so bare and empty I've no choice but to fill them up again. Right? =P Unfortunately I've pretty much stopped buying a few books at one go because Pay Less books in Atria, then 1 Utama closed down.. Buying 1 book in MPH/Borders would equal to 5-6 good books from Pay Less! Having (unfortunately) learnt Economics as a subject in school, I always decide the price won't fulfill enough utility. Haha. So I end up with way fewer books.. and also because I've hardly spent time the past year reading.. due to this and that, blabla.. But my bare shelves will inspire me! =) I hope.
My yahoo email has been causing problems.. I discovered that it's been sending out spam to others.. well, I used to think it was to myself, but today I checked my spam and saw that so many messages have been bouncing back.. from my own email! I've been sending out spam to everyone on my list... and considering that yahoo was one of my first emails ever, that's a massive lot of people.
Which.. isn't too bad.. until... I realised that even my LECTURERS have been receiving the spam..! :-( Both my IPDA and UM lecturers... oh no. A student has been sending out good deals on Viagra and such to them... there goes my marks....
Any idea how to solve that problem?? Please help...
God bless,
Jo
If I'm a millionaire next time.. I'll have a whole huge room turned into a library! =)
Haha. Since I'm pretty sure I won't become a millionaire (I've no idea how I'll even earn a decent living) I'll stick to turning a small room into a library.. starting with my bedroom. :-) Recently gave away a lot of my small kid books, books that I grew up with.. mostly all bought from Pay Less books (one of the few places where you can get decent and cheap books).. but kept some of my favourite books. :-) These books I read and reread throughout the years.. in fact, I felt as if it was only yesterday that I had read some of them.. till I saw a label on one of the books.. Joanne Lim 1 K.. lol. Form 1... 7 years ago! I was but a fat and short kid back then.. Now slightly less-fat and maybe 1 or 2 cm taller. Hehe.
I keep turning around to admire the books even as I type this post.. Because I had given away about 1/4 of my books, some of the shelves are empty.. since they look so bare and empty I've no choice but to fill them up again. Right? =P Unfortunately I've pretty much stopped buying a few books at one go because Pay Less books in Atria, then 1 Utama closed down.. Buying 1 book in MPH/Borders would equal to 5-6 good books from Pay Less! Having (unfortunately) learnt Economics as a subject in school, I always decide the price won't fulfill enough utility. Haha. So I end up with way fewer books.. and also because I've hardly spent time the past year reading.. due to this and that, blabla.. But my bare shelves will inspire me! =) I hope.
My yahoo email has been causing problems.. I discovered that it's been sending out spam to others.. well, I used to think it was to myself, but today I checked my spam and saw that so many messages have been bouncing back.. from my own email! I've been sending out spam to everyone on my list... and considering that yahoo was one of my first emails ever, that's a massive lot of people.
Which.. isn't too bad.. until... I realised that even my LECTURERS have been receiving the spam..! :-( Both my IPDA and UM lecturers... oh no. A student has been sending out good deals on Viagra and such to them... there goes my marks....
Any idea how to solve that problem?? Please help...
God bless,
Jo
Thursday, September 09, 2010
Arrrgh I feel so dang horribly bad :( I promised to visit an aunty today but totally completely forgot about it. Too many things cluttering my mind. *sigh* Itulah my mind too focused on my stomach! Only remembered about the 20s dinner tonight. Cannot believe I forgot about the visit. I could have forgotten about the dinner but remembered the visit… instead I forgot the visit and remembered the dinner! 5 A student kononnya…
Haih feel so bad :( How do you make it up to an aunty for forgetting an important thing liddat??
Better start writing down all my appointments and plans.. I thought I could trust my brain to remember everything. I think I’ve got something on tomorrow… but can’t recall what. Or maybe I’m just paranoid now. Zzz.
Woke up to the sound of drilling and no electricity. My house has been under renovation for the longest time now because these contractors are so unreliable and show up randomly to do some work. This time they disappeared about 2 weeks and this morning suddenly came back. Cousin’s car got stolen.. good thing we’ve got an extra car, lent it to her. Her brother’s car just got stolen few months back. My family’s car has been stolen before. My Kenari has been broken in before. In fact, most Malaysians would have had some kinda experience with these car thieves. So much for Malaysia’s crime rate going down.
I’m just babbling. Still not happy with my forgetting.
Think I’ll just go and sleep.
Haih feel so bad :( How do you make it up to an aunty for forgetting an important thing liddat??
Better start writing down all my appointments and plans.. I thought I could trust my brain to remember everything. I think I’ve got something on tomorrow… but can’t recall what. Or maybe I’m just paranoid now. Zzz.
Woke up to the sound of drilling and no electricity. My house has been under renovation for the longest time now because these contractors are so unreliable and show up randomly to do some work. This time they disappeared about 2 weeks and this morning suddenly came back. Cousin’s car got stolen.. good thing we’ve got an extra car, lent it to her. Her brother’s car just got stolen few months back. My family’s car has been stolen before. My Kenari has been broken in before. In fact, most Malaysians would have had some kinda experience with these car thieves. So much for Malaysia’s crime rate going down.
I’m just babbling. Still not happy with my forgetting.
Think I’ll just go and sleep.
Monday, September 06, 2010
Raya Hols!
But it's already PACKED. Before I even BEGAN to enjoy my holidays. Haiyoyo. I feel so utterly stressed. I'm getting even less sleep than during the sem!
Sigh. How lah.
People's favourite question when they see me is, "So.. got bf from UM or not?? *wink wink*"
My answer.. Takde lah. Even if a guy ever wanted me at the rate I'm going I'll have absolutely no time for him. Unless he doesn't mind late night dates.. really late night dates. Like, how I went out for a drink with friends tonight at 12.30am and got back at 2.40am. And how I'll be doing that tomorrow night too. Because I don't have other times. :-(
Mmm, anyway..
I'm dreading the end of these 2 weeks holidays. It'll be a COMPLETE mad rush then. 4 major assignments to complete, not even including the minor assignments yet. I'm representing my college in squash and badminton. I'm in the committee for the debate competition. And I somehow or other got involved as the secretary of the upcoming CF camp.
Nooooooooooooo. :(
Uni is teaching me some very very painful lessons... how to be consistent, and not last minute. I enjoy classes, I just detest the assignments. Haiz. Gone were the days when I played until the final 2 weeks before exams. :(
Off to bed! I'm fine, just tired. :)
God bless,
Jo
Sigh. How lah.
People's favourite question when they see me is, "So.. got bf from UM or not?? *wink wink*"
My answer.. Takde lah. Even if a guy ever wanted me at the rate I'm going I'll have absolutely no time for him. Unless he doesn't mind late night dates.. really late night dates. Like, how I went out for a drink with friends tonight at 12.30am and got back at 2.40am. And how I'll be doing that tomorrow night too. Because I don't have other times. :-(
Mmm, anyway..
I'm dreading the end of these 2 weeks holidays. It'll be a COMPLETE mad rush then. 4 major assignments to complete, not even including the minor assignments yet. I'm representing my college in squash and badminton. I'm in the committee for the debate competition. And I somehow or other got involved as the secretary of the upcoming CF camp.
Nooooooooooooo. :(
Uni is teaching me some very very painful lessons... how to be consistent, and not last minute. I enjoy classes, I just detest the assignments. Haiz. Gone were the days when I played until the final 2 weeks before exams. :(
Off to bed! I'm fine, just tired. :)
God bless,
Jo
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Yet another funeral...
How many funerals have I attended this year?? 10? 11? Around there.
Death...
mmm. Decided to skip my lectures yesterday and took the LRT, interchanged to Star LRT, walked to Bukit Jalil bus station, took bus down to Malacca in the morning for my uncle's funeral. I was planning to go after my lectures, but decided, what the heck, just skip lectures and take the morning bus back. Pretty uneventful journey, other than getting harassed by all the ticketing pimps/gangsters/agents, watching a guy being dragged by his collar, blatant corruption in front of everyone, and changing bus halfway at the Ayer Keroh toll (the driver suddenly ordered all those stopping at Malacca to get down and board another bus which he stopped at the toll).. ok, maybe it wasn't such an uneventful trip after all.
At the funeral... politics, as usual. What's new, eh? I'm beginning to think every death results in politics, whether rich or poor, young or old.
Anyway, came back home, logged on my com, and *gasped* all my work. -_- I'm beginning to HATE the internet. If there were no communication no one would be able to pass me work when they don't see me. :(
Off to work.
God bless,
Jo
Death...
mmm. Decided to skip my lectures yesterday and took the LRT, interchanged to Star LRT, walked to Bukit Jalil bus station, took bus down to Malacca in the morning for my uncle's funeral. I was planning to go after my lectures, but decided, what the heck, just skip lectures and take the morning bus back. Pretty uneventful journey, other than getting harassed by all the ticketing pimps/gangsters/agents, watching a guy being dragged by his collar, blatant corruption in front of everyone, and changing bus halfway at the Ayer Keroh toll (the driver suddenly ordered all those stopping at Malacca to get down and board another bus which he stopped at the toll).. ok, maybe it wasn't such an uneventful trip after all.
At the funeral... politics, as usual. What's new, eh? I'm beginning to think every death results in politics, whether rich or poor, young or old.
Anyway, came back home, logged on my com, and *gasped* all my work. -_- I'm beginning to HATE the internet. If there were no communication no one would be able to pass me work when they don't see me. :(
Off to work.
God bless,
Jo
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Living for today
Just a few days ago I realised that I practically live each day for another day (does that make sense?). From Mondays to Thursdays, I look forward to Fridays. On Fridays, I look forward to the start of my weekend. On Sundays, I attempt to step on my emergency brakes to prevent Monday from starting all over again.
The only time I thoroughly live for the present would be weekends. Which practically constitutes only about 30% of the whole week! That means I spend 70% of my week waiting for another day!!
Thing is, I don't have to live like that. I do not dread uni, in fact, I actually LIKE uni. Unlike school days where I just 'existed' in classes, I now LEARN new things in classes and lectures. Classes are really enlightening.
I think it's just a bad habit. Which I have to get rid of. I can't keep living like these for the rest of my life.. that would mean I only really live 30% of my whole life.. ok, a bit more if you wanna include holidays. And that is a scary thought.
I'm off to begin in life with a new perspective! (And yes, your life does change with a change of perspectives.)
Had a disastrous piano lesson today. Haha. I'm debating whether I'm just plain retarded in the piano, or I need to put in more effort. Undoubtedly I put in way more effort on my classical guitar.. but that's because the classical guitar can be played anywhere, anytime. As for the piano..
Must make more effort...
Live for today. ;-)
God bless
Jo
The only time I thoroughly live for the present would be weekends. Which practically constitutes only about 30% of the whole week! That means I spend 70% of my week waiting for another day!!
Thing is, I don't have to live like that. I do not dread uni, in fact, I actually LIKE uni. Unlike school days where I just 'existed' in classes, I now LEARN new things in classes and lectures. Classes are really enlightening.
I think it's just a bad habit. Which I have to get rid of. I can't keep living like these for the rest of my life.. that would mean I only really live 30% of my whole life.. ok, a bit more if you wanna include holidays. And that is a scary thought.
I'm off to begin in life with a new perspective! (And yes, your life does change with a change of perspectives.)
Had a disastrous piano lesson today. Haha. I'm debating whether I'm just plain retarded in the piano, or I need to put in more effort. Undoubtedly I put in way more effort on my classical guitar.. but that's because the classical guitar can be played anywhere, anytime. As for the piano..
Must make more effort...
Live for today. ;-)
God bless
Jo
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Still trying to find a balance between work and play... I refuse to let work take over my life. These are my final few years as a student!
Have to drive down to Malacca this Monday, uncle passed away. :( I'm already thinking. Lecture finishes at 3, go down to Malacca, come back up Tuesday night. I could have gone back on Friday, but I wanted to spend my weekend working on my assignments. I'm still puzzled as to why they want to have the funeral over a span of so many days, none of us are travelling from too far. Max 4 hours away? As a result most of us can only be at the funeral parlour 3 days or so. Most of the rest will miss the funeral (burial) this Tuesday. I decided I'm going for the burial. Sitting around a few days with a coffin is tiresome and brings back too many memories of the distant and not-so-distant past.
Wednesday I've got an assignment due. So I've got to finish the assignment by tomorrow, because realistically speaking, you can't do work during a funeral. Other than handling morbid funeral logistics.
Hmm. Thinking aloud.
God bless,
Jo
Have to drive down to Malacca this Monday, uncle passed away. :( I'm already thinking. Lecture finishes at 3, go down to Malacca, come back up Tuesday night. I could have gone back on Friday, but I wanted to spend my weekend working on my assignments. I'm still puzzled as to why they want to have the funeral over a span of so many days, none of us are travelling from too far. Max 4 hours away? As a result most of us can only be at the funeral parlour 3 days or so. Most of the rest will miss the funeral (burial) this Tuesday. I decided I'm going for the burial. Sitting around a few days with a coffin is tiresome and brings back too many memories of the distant and not-so-distant past.
Wednesday I've got an assignment due. So I've got to finish the assignment by tomorrow, because realistically speaking, you can't do work during a funeral. Other than handling morbid funeral logistics.
Hmm. Thinking aloud.
God bless,
Jo
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Life
Been rather busy the past few days, am still adjusting to uni life. I enjoy the relaxed atmosphere of classes, of course. All you need is a pen, some paper, a bit of reading before class, and you're all set and ready to go! To understand your lecturer that day, I mean. Haha.
Still trying to maintain piano & guitar playing everyday.. trying. It's a good thing my piano teacher went off for quite a while, so I've had time to not worry about piano classes while I was really a noob in uni. Hehe.
The only things that are suffering with the start of uni are the techy stuff at home and bill payments. Ok lah, I really don't know 2 hoots about solving technical problems if it doesn't involve a loose wire that can be fixed back easily. The internet has been absolutely rotten, even after TMNet came a few times, and precious money has been spent on them TWICE. Because I thought they would be a better job than some other outside techman. Oh boy, was I wrong.
As for the bills... I've not paid a bill in the longest time. *I wonder where they all are.* Guess I'll wait till our electricity supply, astro, phone line etc. are cut off before I take action.
Nah. I'll have to spend this weekend searching for all the bills. I work so much in uni and hostel I usually just wanna come home and laze about.. that's why I've been avoiding the bills. So many numbers involved. -_- I don't like numbers.
Dang! I've not paid the credit bills in the longest time.. that's the killer, with their unreasonable interest rates. At least the others just threaten to cut off their service.
Oh yeah, I'm real glad dad bought the original Microsoft home/student edition. I would never have been willing to spend so much money to get it, and even when he bought it he never used it. Just left it around.. for me? The way he taught me to pay bills online and wanted us to have the best of things after his final visit to the hospital and doctors told him he need no longer go to the hospital... haha, he insisted I buy the keyboard just because I mentioned it. As my birthday present. :) But anyway, in uni now I'm really glad I have that original copy, don't have to contend with the problems that most of my friends are having with pirated software.. namely the product key problem. Some of my friends now use notepad to do their work. Ah.. friends. :) Such a lovely ring to that word. Haha. Love my bunch of Engrish people.. fun & easy to talk to peeps. No cliques! That's the most important. I suppose I hardly had time to really mingle with my form 6 friends before, what with all the havoc going on in life. But now I've got time, and I can really call them friends. :-)
Hmmm. exhausted. lack of sleep the past few days. The days I stay over in hostel I sometimes wake up sweating because being atop the double decker means the fan doesn't reach me. But if I'm sitting on my desk my wet hair can dry in under 10 mins! That's better than a hair dryer, I tell you.
Haha, I'm blurting out random facts today. Probably 'cause I just read my dad's office's magazine and their tribute to him. Such an amazing man... I remember one of his closest friends refusing to accept reality and not visiting my dad until the last few days of his life. I'm glad he finally came though, a bit later and he would harbour guilt for life. What struck me was the way this friend held his hand, looked at him, and hardly ever, ever uttered a word. For hours, just sitting by the bed. My dad did most of the talking.. with the little talking he could manage by that stage. He boasted my STPM results! Haha. I tell ya, I'm sure glad he had 7 days to tell others about my STPM results. God must have granted me such results just to give dad some joy during the last few days of his life. And to tell him that he didn't even have to worry about his youngest daughter because she would be able to survive in this world.
Yesterday someone referred to me as an 'anak yatim'. I was quick to deny that fact, until it hit me, I am an anak yatim, just not an anak yatim piatu. In the English sense, 'orphan' would not apply to me, but in Malay, yes.
Looking forward to the Raya hols, I need a good break from life.
Still trying to maintain piano & guitar playing everyday.. trying. It's a good thing my piano teacher went off for quite a while, so I've had time to not worry about piano classes while I was really a noob in uni. Hehe.
The only things that are suffering with the start of uni are the techy stuff at home and bill payments. Ok lah, I really don't know 2 hoots about solving technical problems if it doesn't involve a loose wire that can be fixed back easily. The internet has been absolutely rotten, even after TMNet came a few times, and precious money has been spent on them TWICE. Because I thought they would be a better job than some other outside techman. Oh boy, was I wrong.
As for the bills... I've not paid a bill in the longest time. *I wonder where they all are.* Guess I'll wait till our electricity supply, astro, phone line etc. are cut off before I take action.
Nah. I'll have to spend this weekend searching for all the bills. I work so much in uni and hostel I usually just wanna come home and laze about.. that's why I've been avoiding the bills. So many numbers involved. -_- I don't like numbers.
Dang! I've not paid the credit bills in the longest time.. that's the killer, with their unreasonable interest rates. At least the others just threaten to cut off their service.
Oh yeah, I'm real glad dad bought the original Microsoft home/student edition. I would never have been willing to spend so much money to get it, and even when he bought it he never used it. Just left it around.. for me? The way he taught me to pay bills online and wanted us to have the best of things after his final visit to the hospital and doctors told him he need no longer go to the hospital... haha, he insisted I buy the keyboard just because I mentioned it. As my birthday present. :) But anyway, in uni now I'm really glad I have that original copy, don't have to contend with the problems that most of my friends are having with pirated software.. namely the product key problem. Some of my friends now use notepad to do their work. Ah.. friends. :) Such a lovely ring to that word. Haha. Love my bunch of Engrish people.. fun & easy to talk to peeps. No cliques! That's the most important. I suppose I hardly had time to really mingle with my form 6 friends before, what with all the havoc going on in life. But now I've got time, and I can really call them friends. :-)
Hmmm. exhausted. lack of sleep the past few days. The days I stay over in hostel I sometimes wake up sweating because being atop the double decker means the fan doesn't reach me. But if I'm sitting on my desk my wet hair can dry in under 10 mins! That's better than a hair dryer, I tell you.
Haha, I'm blurting out random facts today. Probably 'cause I just read my dad's office's magazine and their tribute to him. Such an amazing man... I remember one of his closest friends refusing to accept reality and not visiting my dad until the last few days of his life. I'm glad he finally came though, a bit later and he would harbour guilt for life. What struck me was the way this friend held his hand, looked at him, and hardly ever, ever uttered a word. For hours, just sitting by the bed. My dad did most of the talking.. with the little talking he could manage by that stage. He boasted my STPM results! Haha. I tell ya, I'm sure glad he had 7 days to tell others about my STPM results. God must have granted me such results just to give dad some joy during the last few days of his life. And to tell him that he didn't even have to worry about his youngest daughter because she would be able to survive in this world.
Yesterday someone referred to me as an 'anak yatim'. I was quick to deny that fact, until it hit me, I am an anak yatim, just not an anak yatim piatu. In the English sense, 'orphan' would not apply to me, but in Malay, yes.
Looking forward to the Raya hols, I need a good break from life.
Friday, August 06, 2010
Of the lighter things in life
Lecturer: What is the theme of this passage?
Me: The benefits of travelling...??
L: Ok... the benefits of travelling are what?
Me: er... the benefits of travelling are.... many??
L: What?? The benefits of travelling are MEN?? It's a bit too early in the day to think about MEN, isn't it??
(I actually CHECKED my watch when I heard that. 1.01pm.)
Me: *Completely befuddled face before realising what he heard* Noo.. MANY.
L: MEN???!
Me: MANYYY....
L: OH, MANY...
-_- This has got to be the worst mishearing I've ever encountered with a teacher/lecturer. Friends don't need to say la, most are too corrupted beyond hope. Haha.
The benefits of travelling are MEN??
Oh my I feel as if I've just made a trip to Thailand for 'benefits'.
Me: The benefits of travelling...??
L: Ok... the benefits of travelling are what?
Me: er... the benefits of travelling are.... many??
L: What?? The benefits of travelling are MEN?? It's a bit too early in the day to think about MEN, isn't it??
(I actually CHECKED my watch when I heard that. 1.01pm.)
Me: *Completely befuddled face before realising what he heard* Noo.. MANY.
L: MEN???!
Me: MANYYY....
L: OH, MANY...
-_- This has got to be the worst mishearing I've ever encountered with a teacher/lecturer. Friends don't need to say la, most are too corrupted beyond hope. Haha.
The benefits of travelling are MEN??
Oh my I feel as if I've just made a trip to Thailand for 'benefits'.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
UM is ONE!
Having come from mediocre schools, a week in UM was a huge difference to me. All the time we hear about UM being the best uni in the country, the most prestigious uni in the country.. the most this and the most that (remember to add the words 'in the country!' or else..).
LOL. Still, as the top uni the country, I'm sure the students will reap the benefits of belonging to it. So I'm not complaining. ;-)
I survived orientation week! It was tough at first, but things worked out in the end. It was pretty traumatising at times due to certain issues, but it's an experience I won't regret.
I'm exhausted, it's off to bed for me. Classes commence this Monday, and I'll be learning Thai in my minor! Hehehehe.
Things seem to be falling in place, and I can only think of one reason why. ;-) Guess He really does know what's best for us, eh?
God bless ya!
Jo
LOL. Still, as the top uni the country, I'm sure the students will reap the benefits of belonging to it. So I'm not complaining. ;-)
I survived orientation week! It was tough at first, but things worked out in the end. It was pretty traumatising at times due to certain issues, but it's an experience I won't regret.
I'm exhausted, it's off to bed for me. Classes commence this Monday, and I'll be learning Thai in my minor! Hehehehe.
Things seem to be falling in place, and I can only think of one reason why. ;-) Guess He really does know what's best for us, eh?
God bless ya!
Jo
Thursday, July 01, 2010
Me thinks..
It's awesome to be a nature-lover in Malaysia. Things drop by so so so easily. The rest of us non-nature-loving peeps work dog-hard and sometimes end up with dog poop.
Ah well. Stark realities of life.
:-)
Starting orientation next week!
Ah well. Stark realities of life.
:-)
Starting orientation next week!
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Of Death and Life
Went for Roland Wee & family's funeral in Nilai today.
It was heart-breaking. The sight of 4 coffins lined up side by side before being buried is something few people ever witness (The grandmother's funeral was at a different site, else it would have been FIVE coffins lined up). The deceased ranged from age 15 to 79, so the spectrum of people who came for the service varied just as much. From young people still in their school uniform, to old uncles and aunties who couldn't walk by themselves. Heart-wrenching.
The survivors, mother, son, and daughter, stuck in a hospital, unable to attend their loved ones' funeral. The 13 year old son in a coma, fighting for his life even as I type.
My parents' old churchmates, all from Bethel church, gathering together. The last time I saw all of them was during my dad's funeral. They told me they used to hang out as youth in their church. Now, all I see them meeting together for is during funerals, as their group gets smaller and smaller. Nevertheless, their spirit amazes me. Despite everything, they told me to push on, to hold fast to God's word, and to be a prayer warrior. One old uncle told me, "It's our time to pass the baton to your generation." I suppose as they meet each other at one another's funeral, they realise that indeed, the battle cannot stop at their generation, because it's a battle that has yet to end.
Everyone remembered me hoping to get into UM the last time they met me, just a week after my STPM results. They looked genuinely happy when I told them I was given my 1st choice, Bachelor of Arts (English) in UM. :) Pastor Johnny (Roland Wee's brother) told me, "God does have His plans eh..." Somehow that comment wasn't assuring me, it seemed to be filled with questions, and Pastor Johnny seemed to be taking assurance from ME that yes, God's plan does work out in the end. He was an amazing pillar of support during my dad's last days, and I'm sorry I cannot be the same to him in this trying time. I really don't know why this family was torn apart in a twinkling of an eye, and it hurt so much to see the deep sorrow and pain in everyone today, from people of all ages. Still, all I can say is, the battle must go on. We have to pick up the broken pieces from life-shattering events and fight on. Casualties have always been part of a war, but we have the amazing assurance that we will meet once again in heaven.
Grim matters aside, I was offered my 1st choice, Bachelor of Arts (English) in UM. :-) I'll be starting on the 4th of July.. a whole week of orientation. They better not mess with me...
Things have been picking up slowly. Today's chat with the older generation was truly a slap in my face. I've been taking things too easily of late. Have to quit resting on my laurels.
God bless,
Jo
It was heart-breaking. The sight of 4 coffins lined up side by side before being buried is something few people ever witness (The grandmother's funeral was at a different site, else it would have been FIVE coffins lined up). The deceased ranged from age 15 to 79, so the spectrum of people who came for the service varied just as much. From young people still in their school uniform, to old uncles and aunties who couldn't walk by themselves. Heart-wrenching.
The survivors, mother, son, and daughter, stuck in a hospital, unable to attend their loved ones' funeral. The 13 year old son in a coma, fighting for his life even as I type.
My parents' old churchmates, all from Bethel church, gathering together. The last time I saw all of them was during my dad's funeral. They told me they used to hang out as youth in their church. Now, all I see them meeting together for is during funerals, as their group gets smaller and smaller. Nevertheless, their spirit amazes me. Despite everything, they told me to push on, to hold fast to God's word, and to be a prayer warrior. One old uncle told me, "It's our time to pass the baton to your generation." I suppose as they meet each other at one another's funeral, they realise that indeed, the battle cannot stop at their generation, because it's a battle that has yet to end.
Everyone remembered me hoping to get into UM the last time they met me, just a week after my STPM results. They looked genuinely happy when I told them I was given my 1st choice, Bachelor of Arts (English) in UM. :) Pastor Johnny (Roland Wee's brother) told me, "God does have His plans eh..." Somehow that comment wasn't assuring me, it seemed to be filled with questions, and Pastor Johnny seemed to be taking assurance from ME that yes, God's plan does work out in the end. He was an amazing pillar of support during my dad's last days, and I'm sorry I cannot be the same to him in this trying time. I really don't know why this family was torn apart in a twinkling of an eye, and it hurt so much to see the deep sorrow and pain in everyone today, from people of all ages. Still, all I can say is, the battle must go on. We have to pick up the broken pieces from life-shattering events and fight on. Casualties have always been part of a war, but we have the amazing assurance that we will meet once again in heaven.
Grim matters aside, I was offered my 1st choice, Bachelor of Arts (English) in UM. :-) I'll be starting on the 4th of July.. a whole week of orientation. They better not mess with me...
Things have been picking up slowly. Today's chat with the older generation was truly a slap in my face. I've been taking things too easily of late. Have to quit resting on my laurels.
God bless,
Jo
Friday, June 18, 2010
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Road accident
Today I heard about a gruesome accident that killed 5 people in a family, leaving a wife and 2 kids behind. Smses were coming in through my mom's hp because we know the brother of Roland Wee (my parents knew Roland too.) I knew such an accident would have made it into the news, and I checked the online papers.
It's terrifying to think that people whom you're eating and laughing with during breakfast could be gone the next hour, in an accident that was in no way their fault.
Life is indeed fragile and short. Here today.. gone tomorrow. Here this hour.. gone the next.
I can only imagine the sorrow, pain, grief, shock, confusion, and WHYs the survivors are feeling right now. I'm told that one of the kids is 'in shock', and I hardly find that surprising. Even when I was given time to prepare for death I still find it unbelievable at times, up to today. What more these accident victims?
If the smses are correct, one of the 2 kids is still fighting for his/her life in the ICU. So they are probably too busy worrying about him/her to sort out their feelings now.
I'm told that time heals pain. But I know that one never heals completely, and deep wounds can reopen and hurt at anytime of your life. However, we've got our almighty God with us, and do save our Whys for Him. No one on earth can answer us, unless you want to hear some bull-crap answer, not being careful, fate, etc.
My deepest condolences to Roland Wee's surviving family. I know the pain of losing a parent and a sibling, although those losses were in different situations.
Life's one mighty big question mark at times, eh?
(And really, I just don't have it in me to post bimbo posts.)
Today I heard about a gruesome accident that killed 5 people in a family, leaving a wife and 2 kids behind. Smses were coming in through my mom's hp because we know the brother of Roland Wee (my parents knew Roland too.) I knew such an accident would have made it into the news, and I checked the online papers.
It's terrifying to think that people whom you're eating and laughing with during breakfast could be gone the next hour, in an accident that was in no way their fault.
Life is indeed fragile and short. Here today.. gone tomorrow. Here this hour.. gone the next.
I can only imagine the sorrow, pain, grief, shock, confusion, and WHYs the survivors are feeling right now. I'm told that one of the kids is 'in shock', and I hardly find that surprising. Even when I was given time to prepare for death I still find it unbelievable at times, up to today. What more these accident victims?
If the smses are correct, one of the 2 kids is still fighting for his/her life in the ICU. So they are probably too busy worrying about him/her to sort out their feelings now.
I'm told that time heals pain. But I know that one never heals completely, and deep wounds can reopen and hurt at anytime of your life. However, we've got our almighty God with us, and do save our Whys for Him. No one on earth can answer us, unless you want to hear some bull-crap answer, not being careful, fate, etc.
My deepest condolences to Roland Wee's surviving family. I know the pain of losing a parent and a sibling, although those losses were in different situations.
Life's one mighty big question mark at times, eh?
(And really, I just don't have it in me to post bimbo posts.)
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