Busy Busy Busy.. at 21!

What were you doing when you were 21 years old?

Haha. I'm giving tuition, writing articles, struggling with CF work, targetting to do my grade 8 guitar exam by next year, attempting to be healthy.. oh, and all on top of trying to achieve a 4.00 CGPA as a full-time student.

Trying. haha. I failed again this sem, got an A- for Linguistics. Sigh. Well, it was a horrendously boring and technical subject anyway...

Yet to find out my Music in Theatre grade but I think I should have done well. Hopefully an A... Then I would have gotten a 3.95 or 3.96 this sem. Hmm. Forgot already. Somewhere there la. As bro grinningly said, "Eh, why each sem dropping more and more..." and as Joash asked, "Is is possible to ever get back a complete 4.00 overall?"... the answer is.. No. Haha, sadly it's mathematically impossible to get back a 4.00 ever. Or even a 3.99.

Ok, reality check here. I know it's impossible for uni students to achieve 4.00 every single sem, especially as it gets harder and harder. But there is absolutely no harm in trying, is there? :-D Aim for the stars, if you fall you land among the clouds. Or some saying along that line.

By 23 years old I'll be working. Yes, I think I'll still be studying, some post-grad thing I guess, if I maintain my results and secure a scholarship. No scholarship, no study. Haha, my motto! Or maybe that's how my family brought me up. Anyhow, when I'm 23 I'll be more of a working adult than a student. :-) At least, I intend to be one. The money I make now is barely enough to sustain my expenses.. I'm quite high maintenance.. =P Ok, mainly because of my classical guitar lessons and also the gym I've joined. Yes, I've joined a gym. ;-) With Joash! =D But yeah, as my expenses get higher, I find my purse getting lighter and lighter.. bank account empty long ago. Lol.

So my main aim is to save a bit every month, I've actually got extra students now so if I just work harder I'll get more money. :-)

I'm so looking forward to finishing off my 2nd year! After another 14 weeks of studies I'll be a... THIRD YEAR STUDENT! Hahaha. Dang, that's old. And all the naggy-haggy people will tell me not to look forward to the working life. To enjoy being a student.

Heck, if you faced as much stress and lack of sleep as I have as a student, you'll want to work too. Don't give me all the crap about worrying about bills and 'new' responsibilities as a working adult. I've lived without a father for nearly 2 years now and I've had to do many things that he used to do. At least mum has learnt to do some of those things now... at one point we even had our internet and phone lines cut because I didn't pay the bills. My phone line has been cut off numerous times now. Bulbs in my house are not working and we can't figure out why. There is a serious electrical problem in one of the rooms so everything we plug in blow out after a while. And I can't freaking solve it it's so darn frustrating! Mum can't hang her arty work because drilling is giving us a problem. Something that would never have happened when dear ol' responsible dad was alive and well...

But no, I'm not whining (yeah, right). I just detest it when people condescendingly tell me to enjoy my assignments because the real world is tough. I wake up each morning to my alarm clock thinking what to do next.. Forgive my incoherency here.

The key to everything is discipline though. And come next sem, I'll have to lead such a clockwork life it'll be amazing even to myself. If not everything will just break down and I'll die. Haha. Enough sleep, no wasting time, healthy meals...

Do you know I didn't fall sick throughout my entire crazy last semester?? Now that's a miracle-working God!

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me...

This break has hardly been enough, my brain is still fuzzy from last sem.. :-(

But do or die, the next semester is coming. Then my final long holidays ever.. because next year is my internship.

I'm shocked at the way uni life is whizzing pass me.. but at the same time I'm glad that it's been such a tremendously satisfying experience. Yes, I've never been so busy, but I'm thoroughly enjoying the freedom and intellectual environment I'm in. Studies is no longer about rote-learning and mugging, but actually about understanding and explaining in exams and assignments. There are no out-right wrong answers, but essays that argue and debate about issues. I wished school had given me such an experience...

But anyway, I've blabbed on for too long. :-) Hey, my blog, I can syok sendiri as much as I want!

Despite every frustration I've encountered, I think what has sustained me thus far is the love and care I am surrounded with everyday. Now I know why God placed us in communities! Mostly family & a select few friends, they may not be very many people, but I've always preferred quality over quantity. Of course, my Joash has been a great pillar of strength despite him having all his own struggles.. hope I've been as wonderful a pillar towards him.. :-)

So yeah, to a better sem...! *Takes a deep breath... dives into the pool* Hope to see you when I resurface at the end of the pool!

God bless,
Jo