Another one..

Had some surprises today. Real shockers. Won't tell you what they are though.

Life is so tiring at times.

Sometimes I just love being young.. sometimes I wish I will just grow up and forget about teenhood(childhood?)!

As you can guess, I'm feeling the latter now.

Sigh. Hate being left out. Hate being thought(or told) that I'm not mature enough. Hate being different at times. Hate being abnormal.

Hate using the word Hate.

14 years old is a really weird age I think. I mean, at 12 or 13, fine, I can still be called a kid. But at 14 you're stuck between childhood and being an 'older teen'. The younger ones look at you as the 'older' one.. the older ones look at you as the 'younger' one. Arrgh!

Sometimes I wish.....

Nah it's no use saying. Plus, I'm not too sure who reads this blog so I had better watch my mouth(or fingers?).

Life is sad when you don't fit in anywhere specific. One day I'm here, one day I'm there. In some places, I'm totally alone.

Gosh. Sad sad sad! It's 11.15pm now.

Can't even decide my future.

You know, sometimes I wish I didn't have the choice to do anything. Life is so much simpler that way, isn't it? Like the book 'The Giver'. They got rid of choices.

Yes.. can you imagine life without choice?

Life would be even worst.

~Lord, forgive me for thinking like this~

Okay, it's time to move on. Sleep this night away, get back to being happy.

Still.. I'm disappointed. Sigh. Why must I be so YOUNG/OLD?! Why can't I be 12 or 17? Why FOURTEEN??!

Oh well. I'll be 15 soon. Not that it's better than 14, but hey, it's a step closer to SOMEWHERE and not IN BETWEEN.

Off to bed.
Joanne