Today.. another typical day before my piano class. Depress.
How am I supposed to know why?? I can't get RID of this dark cloud! But I should be used to it by now, I've gone through it for years already. Doesn't make it easier. Haha I remember in school the past 2 years every Thursday(piano day) I never could enjoy myself. When school was going to be over(6.40pm) I got even more depressed(if that's the right word).
But I guess it pays off. Once done with piano class, I know I'm free from it for another 6 days! Can't wait to finish grade 8. Then the years of piano class can be put behind and forgotten.
Never was musically inclined, let alone good at the piano. Perhaps I don't mind playing a few silly but nice songs now and then. But not FORCED to do it.
Perhaps an instrument I like.. too late. I've gone too far into this piano trouble.
Why the sudden gloomy post? Because my holidays were ruined by this.. and I realised it. On school days I don't feel it so much, after all it just spoils a few hours in school. When you're at home.. trying to enjoy yourself..
You know how it feels right? Let me try and explain better...
Okay, it's something like you've got a major exam coming up. That kind of feeling. Only difference is, when the exam over, it's gone, done and you're relieved. With music, you've got to go through it again the next week!
Okay now I'm really sounding like a pessimist. What can I do?
My birthday's coming.. I really only want one thing. Which I won't get. Too bad.
Enough with self pity. I'm going to force myself to practice those pieces and maybe scales tomorrow morning. Then I'll get through it. And be free for another 6 days! =) Ah finally a smile I hope you'd say.
What can I say? It's my life. I don't have complete control over it.
Did I make the right decision by signing up for grade 6 piano exam next year? Probably an idiot you'd tell me. With my PMR too.
Nevermind. Badminton and cycling will always be around to calm me down. Badminton is no longer my hobby.. I guess you can say it's part of my life now. No badminton, no Joanne. This getting too serious about a sport people call useless right? According to people.. badminton brings you no where. Only the academically inclined get somewhere in this world.
Well, I guess thats what Romans 13:1 is for. It says, 1Let every soul be subject unto the higher powers. For there is no power but of God: the powers that be are ordained of God.
Tha's all for my entry tonight. If I post tomorrow it'll probably be Dr. Jekyll and not Ms. Hyde.
God bless
Joanne Lim
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