Well, at least I'm still alive. Amen? =P
Neway, this week has been exhausting. 2-5pm MSSS training. It's... exhausting, to say the least. I come home half dead. I don't know, how did I ever, ever survive form 4, form 5..?? Maybe STPM really is that much heavier. I dunno...? At the rate I'm going I don't expect to last past April.
It's ok. Free after MSSS.
Except that I STUPIDLY promised to take part in 1.5km and 3km long-distance events to represent yellow house. *Sometimes I wonder at my sheer stupidity* I can try to pull out of it, but I've given my word... Oh well.
Anyway, I skipped school yesterday. I think it's gonna be a recurring event, me skipping school. Hahaha. There are days I just need to sleep past 12noon to regain my energy for the week.
And missed a test.
Well, difference between me in form 5 and now is that I no longer worry about all the work I've missed. Hello, I've missed 5 months of school work. Being absent one day doesn't mean I have to catch up on the work the day before. LOL.
Anyway, I didn't even ask my classmates about the work I missed yesterday. So when I walked passed my Econs teacher, she casually asked me, "Joanne, you want to take the Econs test today?" And me, I really don't know what's gotten into me lately, just calmly replied, "Yeah, sure. When?" Only after we settled the details and she walked away that I realised I had just agreed to sit for a test in 10 minutes time, a test that I HAD NOT STUDIED for at all. Being a completely different Joanne as compared to my younger school days, I just didn't bother too much about it. Haha.
Anyway, another guy and I had to do the test during Business class, where the head of discipline, this really petty teacher who fusses over the slightest breach of discipline, was teaching. *Something I detest* Anyway, he INSISTED that we sit under his eye so that we do not discuss/copy/whatsoever. I just rolled my eyes. It's just a small test. So what's the big deal? Oh well.
This teacher left class for a while. So naturally, my dear classmates helped me with the answers to some of the questions. Hehehehe.
When he came back, he saw us doing our test, and said, "Oh yeah, I forgot about the two of you! I hope you didn't copy!" Me: *Smiles sweetly* He, "You didn't discuss with him right??" Me, "No lah!" Then some really really honest chemical/nerve/bone/whatever in me HAD to add, "Not with him, anyway." *Laughter(nervous, shocked at my honesty perhaps LOL) by classmates*
Either didn't understand what I said, or he chose to ignore it. Knowing him, he wouldn't have just let that comment go if he had understood it.
One thing I've realised since leaving the stifling school environment for one year: Teachers that scare students have no real power over us. I remember being nervous when some strict teachers entered class long ago. Now I've got a couple in form 6 but they don't bother me any longer. All they can do is nag. Hahaha. And that is what they do. Would you believe that a teacher scolded me for marking my MCQ with a tick instead of a circle???
Well, that's all they can do. Nag when work is unfinished, scold when the class is dirty. I've somehow grown this really thick hide where I sit back and watch with amusement as they scold us over really irrelevant things. Not sitting up properly, yawning in class, etc...
Many of my classmates still fear teachers though. I thought my friends were just joking when they frantically rushed to finish their work, whereas there I was, taking my own sweet time. They get so stressed up in class I feel stressed just watching them get stressed. LOL.
Just another point in life, today. Can't wait to leave school and all its stifling rules. I won't mind breaking them all except that schools tend to inconvenience parents for a child's misdeeds. Which may be fine for lower forms, but for sixth formers.. Can you imagine, someone who drives to school has his/her parent called and told to take the child back..? I've yet to hear of such a thing to happen, although it's probably because 6th formers generally tend to be more serious about their studies and less fooling around.
As for me, I just live to get through form 6. And sow sow sow as hard as I can. :-)
My onlining at late hours probably contributes 99% towards my exhaustion on a daily basis. Old habits die hard, so I'll try to kill off this bad habit. Or it'll kill me off.
11.59pm, 1 more min to midnight!